defender, no one blocking me, but itâs not my shot to take. Lyndsey is set in front of the goal and I flick the ball to her, where she instantly hammers it into the corner of the net, putting Sudbury on the scoreboard first. Lyndsey and I crash into each other with a full-body high-five, riding on our wave of adrenaline. The cheerleaders sing out a practiced chant, which makes tonight seem bigger than all of us. That surge carries me through the rest of the game, through the fatigue and frustration, until the refâââs whistle blows for the last time and he raises his arms in a win for Sudbury.
The cheerleaders sound out a victory cheer as my team smashes together, bound as one in our exhaustion and elation. I feel grounded here in the middle of a hundred heartbeats. Cocaptain Karen nudges me and we call the team into a straight line to high-five the Clinton Colonials. With each hand I slap I wonder why Iâve always wanted to leave this town so badly. Has it really been that bad? Because right now, in this moment, the thought of leaving Sudbury sits uncomfortably upon my bones.
Lizzie meets me at the end of the line, puts on her old-timey newsman voice. âYouâre a star, Doyle. Front page news, see.â
I laugh and pull out my mouth guard, jiggle it in my loose fist. âFront page, huh?â
âThe frontest.â
Gregg joins us. âWay to go, Five. Itâs playing like that thatâll get a Boston College scout scrambling for your number.â
I scoff. âAs if. Iâll be lucky if they let me sit on the sidelines to watch their games.â
Lizzie knits her eyebrows. âMaybe itâs because I know exactly nothing about college sports, but why is it such an impossibility that you could play for Boston College?â
âBecause those girls are amazing. They are, like, the best of the best.â
Lizzie bursts a short laugh and looks to Gregg.
He shakes his head at me like Iâm dense. âYouâre a captain who just took her team to State, Five.â
And thatâs when it hits me that the girls playing for the Boston College Eagles were playing for high school teams before they got to college. Hope spikes in me and itâs almost too much to want.
âZephyr!â Itâs my mom. At the bleachers, waving.
Lizzie pulls up her notepad. âI should go see how the Clinton coach spins this loss. Iâm hoping for lots of expletives, but we probably both canât get that lucky tonight.â
Gregg tosses his chin toward the corner of the field. âIâm gonna roll with Alec. Catch up with you later?â
My eyes follow his nod, find Alec. Heâs alone near the net, waiting for Gregg. Watching me. He gives me a shy wave and I raise my stick casually. Like him watching me is nothing.
âTell your moms I say hey.â Gregg pats me on the shoulder and jogs toward Alec.
I go to Mom, her face too small to hold a wider smile. âOh Zephyr! You were amazing! Iâm so proud of you, honey!â
âYou should be,â Coach says from behind, catching me off-guard. âYou played one hell of a game, Doyle.â
âThanks Coach.â
She nods and asks Mom, âDoes she get her athletic talents from you, Olivia?â
Mom laughs. âIâm the definition of uncoordinated. Zephyr has her father to thank for her physical skill.â
Mom hugs me to her. Itâs odd how easy it seems for her to talk to Coach about Dad. Mention him in this offhanded way like he comes up casually in all our conversations lately.
Coach raps on my stick, tells Mom, âYou make sure she rests up, Olivia. Tonight is only the beginning.â
Mom beams, pulls me tighter. âI will.â
âIâm grateful,â Coach says before heading over to the other players, their parents. But Iâm the one whoâs grateful, for Coach including Mom in our teamâs success. Itâs a mission Mom doesnât