to stay here. You donât have to keep things from me.â
A bit surprised by her directness, Gregory only said, âFine, fine,â then turned again to the girlâs father. âWell, Mr. Garth, Father Halloran only told me that Susan was veryâdisturbedâand had these seizures every so often, and that he recommended she see a doctor.â
âA psychiatrist,â amplified Susan.
âWell, yes.â
âAnd thatâs all he told you?â asked Garth.
âThatâs all. Did you take her to a psychiatrist?â
Susan said, âNo.â
âOh, she wanted to go,â said Garth, âbutâwell, in the first place, Father, those guys cost an awful lot of money. I just donât make that kind of money.â He frowned. âAnd in the second placeââ
âDad,â said Susan.
âIn the second place, my daughter is not
crazy
. Why, thereâs never been anything like that in my family. Or in her motherâs either, rest her soul. So how could she all of a sudden be crazy? Now, those fits of hersâthatâs something else again. I thought maybe it might be this epilepsy? I had an uncle, on my motherâs side, my motherâs brother he was,
he
used to take fits like that. Epileptic fits. So I figured, well, could be it turned up again in Susie. So we went to a doctorânot a headshrinker, a regular doctor, went to two of âem in factâand they both examined her, put her through some kind of electro something or otherââ
âElectroencephalograph,â said the girl, quietly.
âYeah. And nothing.â
âNothing?â asked Gregory.
âThatâs right. Sheâs not an epileptic. Two different doctors said so.â
âI see. And did they say anything else?â
âNo, that was about all.â
âThey said,â Susan insisted, âthat I should see a psychiatrist.â
Gregory had an idea. âMr. Garth,â he said, âI realize the economic factor can be an obstacle . . . I mean, money doesnât grow on trees and, as you say, psychiatrists do run pretty high. But what if that part of it were taken care of? You see, I have a very good friendâa brother-in-law, in factâwho is also a very good psychiatrist, andââ
âNo,â Garth said flatly, ânothing doing.â
âBut Iâm sure I could persuade him to take the case for next to nothing.â
âThe money is only part of it. Donât you see, Father? Howcan I send my own daughter to aâto a nut doctor, someone who treats loonies? Sheâs not crazy!â
âItâs not a question of her being crazy. A psychiatrist canââ
But it was a sore point with Garth. His lips and eyes went tightly closed and he shook his head vehemently. âNo. No. I know what they do in their offices, these head doctors. They drag everything out of you. They get you to talking and talkingâabout everything. They donât have any sense of whatâs decent or proper or . . . They just want you to talk about every nasty, filthy thing that ever passed through your mind. I sure wouldnât allow a girl her age to go through something like that. I just wonât buy it. I donât believe in it. And Iâm surprised you do, Father. Isnât the Church against all that stuff?â
âNo,â Gregory said simply. âThe Church doesnât endorse it all, I must admit, butââ
âThere, you see?â
ââbut it does
not
dismiss or condemn it.â Gregory wanted to tell him about Father Devlin of Chicago, a Catholic priest who was also a practising analyst; he wanted to say that the Church does not make snap judgments, that it sifts and examines evidence for years, sometimes for centuries, before it accepts or rejects a thing; he wanted to tell Garth it took the Church four hundred years to recognize Joan of Arc as a