before I respond. Austin follows her.
Maybe Carson can pick me up after work. He may grumble and complain about taking me places, but unless heâs heading off with his friends, he usually goes where I want to go. And down here, he wonât have friends at first. Heâll want to do things with me even moreâ
Mom returns to the kitchen all quiet and distracted-like.
âDid Carson say when heâll be here?â I ask.
Mom is silent long enough to make me stare at her, ignoring the waffle sizzling in the iron.
âWhat? What is it?â
âHeâs not coming. It sounds like he wants to live with your dad.â
chapter four
Carson not living with us?
Not here to drive me around or talk to or even to fight with?
Then the full impact hits me. I might be going to school without my brother. Heâll be at our old school sitting with his friends; my friends will pass by, or sometimes our groups will even combine, but I wonât be there. Iâll be alone in the new school in Marin.
There is no way heâs abandoning me like this. I call him, but it goes directly to voice mail as I should have expected. Thereâs no service at Dadâs, which is why I sometimes feel stir crazy there. If it werenât still before six in the morning, Iâd call the house, but I donât want to wake Dad and Tiffany.
Carson and I fight like cats and dogs; thereâs no way around that truth. But especially since the divorce, we end up doing a lot together. And though we donât hug and say, âI love you,â or smile fondly at one another, we have a pretty close relationshipâthough neither of us would admit it too readily.
This is something I canât even imagine.
After our predawn breakfast, mostly in silence, Uncle Jimmy leaves, and the rest of us all eventually fall back to sleep. Aunt Jenna wakes me at ten to get ready for my first day of work.
I dial Dadâs house, and he answers.
âDad, whatâs going on with Carson? Is he there?â
âNo, heâs at school.â
âWhatâs this about him not moving down?â
âWell, your brother would miss Cottonwood. Heâs not really a big-city person.â
I canât believe what Iâm hearing. Did Dad convince my brother to stay in one short day?
âHe only has one more year of high school, and he can work at the hardware store over the summer.â
I glance at the clock. âDad, I have to go, sorry. Iâm starting work with Aunt Jenna today. Iâll call back tonight. But tell Carson I called.â
Dad says his usual endearing âOkay, good-bye, sweetie,â and I rush for the bathroom.
Later, as I blow-dry my hair, my phone beeps. I expect it to be Carson, but the name surprises me.
NICK: Hey there Rubes, I'm sitting in Spanish II, Como estas?
ME: Bien. is that right? I took French. Bon. How are you?
NICK: Fine, but I missed your empty seat in alg last period. So you haven't started school yet?
ME: Monday. I start work at my aunt's coffeehouse today.
NICK: Sounds cool. Maybe someday I'll show up there for
a coffee. How far away are you?
ME: Three to four hours.
This doesnât even sound like Nick. Heâs never this talkative.
NICK: Is it three or is it four?
ME: Depends on traffic.
NICK: I have a cousin at Berkeley. He wants me to come down. Arc you near?
ME: Across the Bay, not too far. My stepdad thinks I should go to Berkeley for college.
NICK: Cool. Hey gotta go. Mr. Finkle keeps glancing my way. I think he's on to me.
ME: No problema. That's Spanish for no problem.
NICK: Thanks. I'll write later. Want to ask you something
ME: Don't keep me in suspense.
NICK: Oh but I am.
ME: Meany
NICK: Yep. Crap, gotta run. Bye Marin girl.
ME: TTYL
âI think your mom will talk Carson into moving down,â Aunt Jenna says as she drives faster than usual. Weâre late. The convertible top is up, and a thin fog covers the sky.
âHe has