pool.
Eli came in third and Mrs. Berman reflexively pumped her hands into frustrated fists and then shook her head. She turned and looked at Olive and me.
âIâm going to go give Eli a conciliatory hug and then, Olive, we can head home,â she said.
I wanted to ask if I could join them on their way home. Olive lived only five minutes from me. My house was more or less between theirs and the highway exit. But I had trouble asking things of people. I felt more comfortable skirting around it.
âI should probably find Marie,â I said. âSee if we can head out.â
âWe can take you,â Olive said. âRight, Mom?â
âOf course,â Mrs. Berman said as she stood up and squeezed through the crowded bleachers. âDo you want to come say good-bye to Eli? Or should I meet you two at the car?â
âThe car,â Olive said. âTell Eli I said hi, though.â
Olive put her hand right into my Doritos bag and helped herself.
âOkay,â she said once her mom was out of earshot. âDid you see the girl on the other side of the pool, talking to that guy in the red Speedo?â
âHuh?â
âThe girl with the ponytail. Talking to somebody on Eliâs team. I honestly think she might be the hottest girl in the world. Like ever. Like, that has ever existed in all of eternity.â
I looked toward the pool, scanning for a girl with a ponytail. I came up empty. âWhere is she?â I said.
âOkay, sheâs standing by the diving board now,â Olive said as she pointed. âRight there. Next to Jesse Lerner.â
âWho?â I said as I followed Oliveâs finger right to the diving board. And I did, in fact, see a pretty girl with a ponytail. But I did not care.
Because I also saw the tall, lean, muscular boy next to her.
His eyes were deep set, his face angular, his lips full. His short, light brown hair, half-matted, half-akimbo, the result of pulling the swimming cap up off his head. I could tell from his swimsuit that he went to our school.
âDo you see her?â Olive said.
âYeah,â I said. âYeah, sheâs pretty. But the guy sheâs talking to . . . What did you say his name was?â
âWho?â Olive asked. âJesse Lerner?â
âYeah. Who is Jesse Lerner?â
âHow do you not know who Jesse Lerner is?â
I turned and looked at Olive. âI donât know. I just donât. Who is he?â
âHe lives down the street from the Hughes.â
I turned back to Jesse, watching him pick up a pair of goggles off the ground. âIs he in our grade?â
âYeah.â
Olive kept speaking but I had already started to tune her out. Instead, I was watching Jesse as he headed back to the locker room with the rest of his team. Graham was right next to him, putting a hand on his shoulder for a brief moment before jumping ahead of him in the slow line that had formed. I couldnât take my eyes off of the way Jesse moved, the confidence with which he put one foot in front of the other. He was younger than any of the other swimmersâa freshman on the varsity teamâand yet seemed right at home, standing in front of everyone in a tiny swimsuit.
âEmma,â Olive said. âYouâre staring.â
Just then, Jesse turned his head ever so slightly and his gaze landed squarely on me, for a brief, breathless second. Instinctively, I looked away.
âWhat did you say?â I asked Olive, trying to pretend I was engaged with her side of the conversation.
âI said you were staring at him.â
âNo, I wasnât,â I said.
It was then that Mrs. Berman came back around to our side of the bleachers. âI thought you were meeting me at the car,â she said.
âSorry!â Olive said, jumping up onto her feet. âWeâre coming now.â
âSorry, Mrs. Berman,â I said, and I followed them both behind