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Ian turned to me and pulled me close to him, a hand sinking into my hair. “I don’t know about you, but I’m incredibly turned on just with the thought of someone watching us.” Closing the distance between our lips, Ian gave me one of the hungriest kisses I’d ever received. I melted into him as his free hand caressed the soft flesh of my ass, squeezing and pulling me against him while his tongue tempted and teased me. Finally, he pulled back, gazing in my eyes. “Let’s go to bed.”
    Those four words used to excite me , but now they cooled my body. It was a sign that we were still stuck in that rut. The same thing happened as usual - granted, we hadn’t had sex two nights in a row in forever - but the most amazing kiss was followed with the same missionary position, him getting off before me, and then rolling over and going to sleep.
    The week slowly passed as I filled with excitement and nerves. Ian a nd I didn’t talk about it again; we went back to our normal pattern. Days filled with kids and work, nights filled with work and sleep. One day after another dragged on until finally it was Thursday again. In the morning, I called and checked in with my mother-in-law to make sure she could still take the kids as I had set up with her last Friday. I told her we were going to see a movie and dinner; she didn’t mind watching the kids for a night for us though, so it really didn’t matter what the excuse was.
    Once I finally got both kids to take a nap, I jumped in the shower and took the time for once to blow dry my hair and do a full face of makeup . Not heavy, but I rarely took the time to put on concealer, eye shadow, lip liner, and all the other little touches that made me feel beautiful. Without makeup I wasn’t bad looking, but I wanted to look special for our special night. I had straight, fine brown hair, big hazel eyes and a small straight nose that had a spattering of freckles on it. Back when I was thin, I had a nice chin and jawline, but now I had a slight double chin and not-so-discernable jawline. Looking at myself in the mirror once I’d done all the makeup that I knew how to do, I shrugged. This was as good as it was going to get.
    Focusing on think sexy, feel sexy, be sexy , I pulled out one of the only thongs I owned. It was black and it was lace. I didn’t wear it often because it was uncomfortable to sit in for long periods, which I had a tendency to do most days. Then I pulled out a solid black bra. It was the closest thing I had that would match. Yes, I know; it was a girl sin to not wearing matching panties and bra, but when I had kids, I just didn’t have time to worry about that anymore. I was lucky to get into a bra most days. I slipped a simple sundress over the top and went to carry out the rest of my day.
    When Ian arrived home, we packed up the kids and took them ov er to his mom’s and then headed out to the hotel. The car ride was completely quiet. I think both of us were a complete bundle of nerves.
    Once we arrived at the hotel, Ian said he would eat a quick bite in the hotel restaurant while I went up and he would be up in exactly twenty minutes. I gave him a quick kiss before slipping into the elevator. John had texted me the room number earlier in the day. I pushed the floor button and leaned against the side of the elevator, looking at the ceiling, breathing hard. When the bell dinged to announce that I was at my floor, I jumped and wiped my sweaty palms on my dress before exiting the elevator. Gathering all the courage I could, I walked confidently down the hallway and knocked on the door to John’s room.
    “Welcome. Come on in.” John eyed me as he opened the door. He was dressed in a pair of slacks and a black button down shirt that was rolled up , revealing his thick forearms. My entire body was trembling as I stepped across the threshold and wiped my hands against my dress again. “Stand by the bed so we can get started.”
    “O…O… Okay, ” I stuttered,