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fall in love. I knew it just by the look on her face. It made me start thinking about my own feelings and Danny.
    I started to wonder if I could change them finally after all of my failed attempts in the past and if his feelings for me could change. I wondered a lot of things and did try my best, but I couldn’t do anything in the end. I couldn’t change my feelings, and I couldn’t tell him that I loved him either. So I stayed in the place where I had been for the last few years while Rose fell in love with her neighbor, and each day after, I felt a painful stab in my heart when I saw her smile.
    I felt left out of the tide, left behind while everyone else was getting on with their lives, and it was all because of the man that I loved so much. I was content with my life, but I wanted so much to be happy. Happily in love, I heard someone once say. Did that mean, agonizingly out of love? If so, which was I? I loved someone, but they did not love me back. Could that mean I was somewhere in the middle that could be described as unrequited love?
    I made it to my cold apartment. It didn’t take me long. I didn’t live too far away from him. It was a decision that ultimately he and I made together. When I had told him that I was getting an apartment he had said to make sure to get one close by. My heart had been beating so fast when he had said that to me. It made me feel so happy to know that he wanted me near.
    Only later did I realize that he had meant to get an apartment close by the hospital. My heart was torn again and my moment of happiness flew away. It reminded me of a very sad time last year. It was around winter near spring when it happened, when I lost my best friend, when I lost Rose.
    She had been so thrilled and excited about the new book that Reed had written just for her. It was special because unlike all of his other books this one had a happy ending instead of a tragic one. Early that morning before the medical conference Rose dragged me down to the bookstore to get the novel. I followed loyally. She bounced into the store while I waited outside in the cold for her. Unlike her, I wasn’t a morning person and wanted to relax while she bubbled over her book.
    It didn’t take long for her to come back outside with it in her hands, clutched so tightly. She had had the brightest of smiles on her face. I envied her so much. Reed had written that just for her, just to see her smile at the end of one of his books instead of cry. He had loved her so very much. She loved him the same. They were soul mates; I truly believed that, and that’s why I wasn’t as sad when their lives were snuffed from the world.
    Rose and I crossed the street, she was ahead of me while I was lagging behind, and just like that the car came and hit her. Like a candle that flickered at the slightest breeze, her life ended with a sudden strong gust. She was gone before the ambulance came, and there was nothing I could do to stop it from happening. My best friend was dead, and I ran to Danny’s and cried. He held me close while his own tears fell. She had been close to both of us, and her death weighed heavily on our hearts.
    I dragged myself into bed and closed my eyes hoping to get a decent night’s sleep. I hadn’t been able to for a while now. I knew the reason. It wasn’t so strange to comprehend. I was sick. It wasn’t with a cold or anything trivial like that. It was the kind of sick a person didn’t get better from. I had found out a while ago, three months back when I had been having a particularly bad day and collapsed in a stairwell.
    I remember waiting in the examining room in the hospital. My feet dangled off the edge. Slouched, I had waited with my hands gripping the blue vinyl of the examining table. My eyes were turned down to the tiled floor. Swallowing thickly, I had kept looking back up at the clock. Suddenly, the door opened to reveal my doctor. Standing tall and lanky, his hair was speckled gray showing his age. In