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used to see her at night watching as I said goodnight to
whatever girl I had brought home.  Walking away from her had been the
hardest thing I had ever done and I question myself all the time whether I had
made the right decision.  Seeing her today, comforting my sister gives me
some relief knowing that I could have screwed that up if I had just acted
impulsively and selfishly.  
        
Feeling so torn right now I step back and look aimlessly down the street while
I try to resolve the inner conflict I am having.  I don’t want to be here
to watch my sister die.  I know that I will never be the same without her
and I am pissed that fate has stepped in, taking the only family member I have
left.  At the same time my heart feels at home and implores me to hurry
back into the house so I can be near Cait.  I need to get it together so I
can do what I came here to do.
        
What exactly I am doing here I don’t know.  Court had called me to tell me
her doctors suggested Hospice when the last scan had revealed the tumors had
not shrunk but in fact had spread.  I admire her bravery, I am not sure I
would have been able to ask a timeframe for my own death.  Court has
always been strong and I used to hope that she would move past losing our
parents so that she could find a husband of her own and start a family, she would
make such a great mother.  She and I have always been close, filling in
for each other the empty spaces left after our parents had died.  I can’t
believe she is not going to be here this year for Christmas for our annual
phone call where we talk about mom and dad and what it might be like if they
were still here. 
        
Adjusting my bag higher on my shoulder I swallow the lump rising in my throat
and start heading back into the house.  I need to get Cait alone for a
little while so I can ask her the questions I can’t bring myself to ask
Court.  I know Cait is separated from Elliot but I also know that he is
all she knows and she will probably run back to him when she loses my
sister.  I can’t blame her; I wish I still had someone to run to myself. 
Keeping my distance from her during my time here is going to be a
challenge.  Even with make-up running down her face I wanted to grab her
and feel her close to me. I am dying to see if the charge that ran through my
body with our last kiss was just a one time thing or if she truly would be the
only girl that could have that over powering effect on me. 
        
When I reach the door of the house I can hear the girls talking and I try to be
quiet so I don’t interrupt them.  I can hear the playfulness in my
sister’s voice and I would do anything to have her continue that conversation
forever.  I stand in the front room making my way to where the voices are
coming from and I see Cait before me, tall and beautiful as the light from the
kitchen bounces off her body.  I have been so busy paying attention to the
way she is standing I haven’t heard a word they have said but I pull myself
back into the room just as Cait says, “It is never going to happen.”

 
    Chapter 6
    Cait
        
“What is never going to happen?” Matt asks as he walks into the room where I am
now trapped by Court’s frail body.  I flash a you better not say it glance
at Court.
        
“I was just telling Cait I could beat her to the shower.” Court never takes her
eyes off of mine as she speaks, “I think she is willing to take me down if that
is what it takes.”
        
“I will take a quick one and then it is all yours,” I say as Court moves out of
my way and allows me to walk past her into the small hallway that leads to the
room I will be staying in.  As I make my way down the hall I suddenly
remember that my bags are still in the front room next to the couch.  I
turn around to make my way past both of them to retrieve my bags but I see that
Matt has already grabbed them and is headed towards the hall. 
        
“Thanks, guess I am