much enjoyment as if it had been cold beer, all the while offering comments and observations.
âPortuguese girls . . . are very attractive, but donât they just know it. A bit too pleased with themselves for my taste. But that might just be because I havenât got lucky yet.â He winked as if to imply it was only a matter of time.
âI thought you hadâÂdown at the clubs.â
âNo. I met a nice Spanish girl the other nightâÂand an Irish girl. Theyâre everywhere, Irish girls. Itâs all the Ryanair flights. Mind you, half of them think theyâre landing a bit closer to Lisbon than it turns out. This girl, right, she says to her mate,â he put on a passable Irish accent, â âDidya not read the small print, Siobhan? Itâs de small print where dey tell you where de floight for fifty pee is really going!â â
We both laughed hard. As I said, Nathan was the easiest of companions. I didnât regard any of his questions as intrusive, because he was so happy to answer mine. So when he asked me, âIs your bloke coming to see you, then?â I gave him an honest answer.
âI hope not.â
âWhyâs that then?â
âIâm running away from him.â
âLike that, is it? How long you been together?â
âA Âcouple of years.â
Nathan reached for his cigarettes, not offering me one. I donât smoke, and he knew that by then. He took a drag and sucked the smoke into his lungs like nourishment before exhaling. âWhat did he do wrong?â
âLong story.â
âArenât they all.â
I said nothing.
âWhat can you do, except be as kind as possible?â said Nathan.
He was a sweet boy. For a minute I did wonder about telling him a bit about Marc and how he still wanted it to work out between us, whilst I had never intended our arrangement to be permanent. Iâd seen the light at the end of the tunnel, and was racing to meet it.
âThatâs all you can do,â I agreed.
The trouble was, I had tried being kind, but that meant staying to listen to all the arguments to stay. And even if I did capitulate, our relationship was not the only thing that wasnât for me anymore.
âIs he a journalist, too?â
âNo.â
I was quite surprised Nathan remembered what I did for a living. It hadnât been mentioned since that first evening at the cocktail bar with the rest of the language course students when we all threw chunks of biography at one another. I certainly hadnât brought it up, mainly because it wasnât strictly true anymore. Learning some Portuguese was my way of treading water while I worked out what to do next.
âMust be interesting, though, being a journalist,â said Nathan. âBet you enjoy it.â
âI do,â I said, truthfully.
âYou work for a newspaper, right?â
I hesitated.
âOnly, I wanted to ask youâÂâ
âActually, Iâm here because . . . I was recently made redundant.â
âShit. Thatâs tough.â
âYes, well. Onwards and upwards.â
âWhatâre you going to do? You can get another job, yeah?â
âWith any luck. Newspapers are like every other business in these tricky times: cutting down on margins, and that means staff. Itâs not so bad. If I donât get another job straightaway, I can always freelance.â
âCourse you can. You must have loads of experience. I mean, journalists know how to find out anything, donât theyâÂso all you need to do is find out where the work is and go for it.â He nodded encouragingly.
I had to smile. âSomething like that.â
We lay back after eating and dozed. âIâm going to burn if I stay here much longer,â I said after a while.
âWe could walk from here to see the whale, if you want,â said Nathan. âThe one that was in the