But I did know her well enough.
âYou know what the arrangement was ⦠If heâs going down to the river, Iâll kill the little devil.â
I followed her gaze to where her small son was dragging a toy cart across the lawn. As if sensing that he was being watched, he changed direction and started back up towards the smart new sauna again. Caterina went back to her tea and toast. âHeâs changed a lot, you know ⦠I swore to my father that Steve had come through the war unmarred, but it took ten years to take effect. And then the last few years have been hell ⦠hell for both of us, and little William, too!â
âHe had a lousy war, Caty,â I said.
âSo did a lot of other people.â
I remembered the day in 1944 when I went into Nice prison just a few hours after the Gestapo had moved out. I was with the forward elements of the American Army. There was another Englishman with me. We asked each other no personal questions. He was wearing Intelligence Corps badges, but he knew Steve Champion all right, and he was probably sent directly from London, as I had been. The Germans had destroyed all the documents. I suppose London were sure they would have done, or they would have sent someone more important than me to chase it.
âLook at that,â said this other officer, when we were kicking the cupboards of the interrogation room apart. It was a shabby room, with a smell of ether and carbolic, a framed engraving of Salzburg and some broken wine bottles in the fireplace. He pointed to a bottle on the shelf. âSteve Championâs fingertips,â said my companion. He took the bottle and swirled the brine around so that through the mottled glass I saw four shrunken pieces of dark brown organic matter that jostled together as they were pushed to the centre of the whirling fluid. I looked again and found that they were four olives, just as the label said, but for a moment I had shivered. And each time I remembered it I shivered again. âYouâre right, Caty,â I said. âA lot of people had it much worse.â
Overhead the clouds were low and puffy, like a dirty quilt pulled over the face of the countryside.
âThere was all that âwe Celtsâ nonsense. I began to believe that Wales was little different from Brittany. Little did I know ⦠My God!â said Caterina. She was still watching Billy in the garden. âThe banks of the river are so muddy this last week ⦠the rain ⦠one of the village boys was drowned there this time last year.â She looked up at the carved wooden crucifix on the wall above the TV set.
âHeâll be all right.â I said it to calm her.
âHe never dares to go down as far as the paddock when Steve visits. But he just defies me!â
âDo you want me to get him?â
She gave a despairing smile. âI donât know,â she said. She tugged at her hair. I was a âfriend of Steveâsâ: she didnât want me to get any kind of response from Billy that she had failed to get. âWeâll watch from here,â she said.
âThatâs probably best,â I agreed.
âYou English!â she said. I got the full blast of her anxiety. âYouâre probably a fully paid-up subscriber to the Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals.â
âThat wouldnât necessarily make me a child-beater,â I said. âAnd itâs the
Royal
Society.â
âNo one can live with a man who is racked with guilt. And Steve is racked with guilt.â
âYouâre not talking about the war?â I asked.
âIâm talking about the marriage,â she said.
âBecause Steve has no need to feel guilty about the war,â I told her.
âMy mother told me about Englishmen,â said Caterina. She raised her hand in a gesture more appropriate to an Italian market than to an English drawing-room. And now her voice, too,