am glad that happened. I know it’s selfish, but I hated seeing
Katerina with him, even if I knew she didn’t like him as more than
a friend.
I told myself, after my parents died and my
siblings decided they didn’t want anything to do with me as long as
I had the job I do, that I wouldn’t fall in love. Love is hard and
messy. But it hasn’t been a problem before Katerina. No girl has
ever made me feel the way she does. She’s changed me without even
trying. She’s the one girl I would give this all up for. All she’d
have to do is ask. But she wouldn’t. She’s the one girl who would
support my crazy job.
I can’t ask her to accept this lifestyle.
After the life she’s had, she deserves normal. As soon as this job
is over, as soon as Katerina and her family are safe, I will walk
away from this and never look back.
“ Found anything?” Alik asks
me.
I’ve been on the computer all
night looking at everything I can find on Rafael and Gaidar. Phone
records, bank accounts—any and everything. We’ve searched their
homes, and can’t find a single clue. But there has to be something . There always
is. And I am going to figure it out.
“ Not yet,” I answer.
I’m still mad at Alik for not keeping a closer
eye on his sister. If he would have, we wouldn’t be in the
situation right now.
I swear, when I get Katerina back, I’m never,
ever letting her out of my sight again. And I’m definitely not
trusting Alik to watch her. He gets distracted too
easily.
As I’m looking through medical records, I find
something interesting.
A DNA test.
It’s positive.
Rafael has a son.
Maybe this will get me somewhere.
“ I can’t believe I lost my little
sister,” Alik says. “What kind of a brother does that?”
You, apparently.
But I don’t say it out loud. I’m really,
really mad at him, and if I talk I might end up saying something I
would regret. So, for now, I keep my mouth shut. He feels bad
enough already without me running my mouth.
“ I remember the day Kat was born.
I was only three at the time, but I remember seeing her for the
first time. She was wrapped in this light pink blanket. Her eyes
were so blue. I thought she was cute, though I’d never tell her
that,” he says. “Even though she was bald until she was a year
old.”
I listen, but I don’t stop my search. I
haven’t slept in over forty hours, and I don’t plan on sleeping
until Katerina is safe. I take a drink of my energy drink, not sure
if it’s working or not. I feel like I’m running on adrenaline right
now, but that’s not helping enough.
“ Her and Eduard were so close
growing up,” he says. “Whenever he died, Kat didn’t come out of her
room for two whole weeks. Mum had to force her to eat. It was
awful. We started running, and that helped, but she hasn’t been the
same. She’s happier now than I’ve seen her in a while, but she’s
not the same girl she was. She used to be so bubbly and hyper. Like
a cheerleader on one of those American movies.”
I try to imagine Katerina like that, but I
can’t. That is not the girl I know.
That girl would’ve been perfect for Damon,
though. Maybe that’s why her and him connected. Maybe he reminds
her of who she used to be.
“ I like the girl she is now,” I
say.
“ Me too,” Alik says. “Eduard would
be proud of who she has become.”
Probably.
“ I told Raslan that Kat is
missing,” he says. “He wants to help us find her. He’s going to go
out with the search party later today.”
Raslan is Katerina’s childhood
friend.
“ The more the better,” I
say.
“ Kat used to have the biggest
crush on Raslan,” Alik says. “After Eduard died, she refused to
talk to him. He was heartbroken. I think he secretly liked her too,
but there was no way Eduard would’ve ever let them
date.”
I type faster, not really wanting to hear
about Katerina’s past relationships.
I shouldn’t be jealous. I have no right to be.
Katerina isn’t my girlfriend. I