âYeah, I know, shopping. Way more important.â
And itâs like the universe is testing me or something because no sooner than I feel sort of snuggly inside, Amber Vaughn walks out of the cafeteria with the other new kid at our school this year, Kushâs cousin, Sean, and bam, my mind goes straight back to that afternoon. A slow-mo fantasy plays in my head where Iâm on my feet and going to her and planting a not-for-school kiss on those full lips, and I have to shake my head to make it stop. Because, obviously, she hates me. And, not so obviously, but maybe sheâs into that new kid. Theyâre pretty intense in conversation about something. And sheâs smiling. And heâs doing that dude hands in his pockets, hair over his eyes, shy and studly thing.
âAre you okay?â Amber Rose looks up. âYou stoppedbreathing for a second.â
I return my focus to the girl next to me. âYeah, fine, just remembered I forgot my calc homework in the car.â
That afternoon, I help Devon get ready. Heâs a mess because heâs jonesing hard for Kush. And it doesnât matter how many times Iâm telling him that dude is straight, Devon does not want to believe it.
âWhat do you think? Pepperoni or meat lovers? But heâs half Indian, maybe heâs a vegetarian.â
âDoesnât he eat lunch with yâall every day?â
âRight. Not a vegetarian. Chips in a bowl or in a bag?â
âYou are so gay.â I roll my eyes and grab the chip bag from his hand and plop it on the bar that separates the kitchen from the family room. âBag is fine.â
âSavage.â Devon gasps but doesnât grab the bag back. âWhenâs Amber-o-zia getting here?â
Devon is hilarious with his nicknames and with all the Ambers in our school itâs necessary. Amber-o-zia, like the frothy Jell-O salad, is what he calls Amber Rose. The nickname kind of fits her.
âSheâs not. Sheâs shopping with her mom. Some big sale or something.â
Devon freezes. âPlease tell me youâre not staying home.â
I sidle over to him and sling my arm around his neck.âStaying home. Plopping on the couch right between you and lover boy. Need to make sure thereâs no funny stuff going on in here.â
âIf youâre not lying I hate you right now.â A web of red splotches works its way up his neck. Itâs completely easy to rile him up.
I drop my arm and nudge him. âKidding. Donât worry, Iâll get out of your hair. Wouldnât want to interrupt your boy time.â
His phone chimes. When Devon finishes reading the text, he lets out an exasperated sigh.
âWhatâs the matter?â
âI havenât told Plain and Small Iâm not going to the football game and dance. Sheâs expecting to ride with us, but I was counting on Sean giving her a ride. Now he canât come over.â Devon paces the kitchen then stops. âCrap, sheâs going to hate me.â
âSheâs not going to hate you, kid. Sheâs your bestie.â My brain ticks and clicks with possibility. If I can get her in my car, maybe I can convince her to go over the mountain to sing at Sizzâs. I doubt sheâll want to miss the dance, but if sheâd be willing to miss the game, we could do it. Thereâll be time. âAnd, hey, no worries.â I snag a handful of chips out of the bag. âIâll give her a ride.â
âReally? Youâre the best.â Devon goes back to singinghis way around the kitchen and now Iâm the one pacing. Iâve got to find the right way to play this. She canât think Iâm trying to hit on her. Or that Iâm trying to be a douche to Amber Rose again.
Iâll have to make it all about the music.
CHAPTER SIX
What I thought I knew
Where I thought Iâd be
Itâs all a wash
When you look at me
When the doorbell rings,