light brown hair that was beginning to recede and he was holding her hand. His eyes were not on the camera, but on his daughter, and he was smiling every bit as proudly as she was.
This was the first image of her father Holly had seen for twenty-five years and, as she looked at it, so the floodgates very nearly broke once more and she found herself overwhelmed by memory after memory. Of course she remembered him. She remembered playing tennis with him in the back garden, splashing about at some beach or other with him while she tentatively learnt to swim, sitting on his knee while he read stories to her, and many more. Now, seeing his face, the memories all came flooding back. She sank down on the edge of the bed and tried to speak.
âJules, itâs him. Thatâs my dad.â She found she couldnât say anything else. She was determined not to break down and cry her eyes out again, but it was far from easy. She turned away and focused out of the window, across the garden to the old church. Beyond the church tower, the open moorland stretched upwards into the distance.
âThe post office sells milk.â Julia turned on her heel and disappeared, leaving Holly to her thoughts. The significance of Juliaâs words did not emerge for another ten minutes, when Holly heard the sound of Juliaâs shoes on the stairs and found a cup of steaming hot tea being thrust into her hand. By this time she had regained some sort of normality. She returned her eyes to the room and gave Julia a weak smile.
âThanks, Jules. Youâre a star.â
âAnd, before you ask, I washed the mugs thoroughly before using them. All right?â Holly nodded. Her love â Julia had been known to refer to it as a fixation â of cleanliness was well known to all her friends. The story of her being caught
in flagrante
, vacuuming the floor of her office, had long since become a part of the folklore of the company where she worked. That, and her addiction to expensive shoes.
âThanks Jules.â She sat down on the edge of the bed and took a sip of tea. âMmh, thatâs good.â She looked up, still trying to come to terms with the emotions this place aroused in her. âIt probably isnât going to make any sense to you, but I realise Iâve spent twenty-five years of my life hating the man and now, suddenly, I remember how much I used to love him. He was my dad and I really, really loved him. I donât know how to explain what Iâm feeling. He went off and left us, after all, so heâs the bad guy in all this, but somehow Iâm beginning to feel regret.â She looked Julia in the eye. âHave I been unfair to him, Jules?â
âYou say heâs the bad guy, but he never did anything to harm you, did he?â Holly could see that Julia was picking her words carefully. âI mean, did he at least pay maintenance, or whatever itâs called?â
Holly nodded. âAs far as I know, money wasnât the problem. He paid what he had to pay. And youâre right; he never did me any harm, unless you count just disappearing and never reappearing as doing harm. Thinking about him now brings it all back. I cried and cried and cried when he left.â She rubbed her eyes with the back of a hand. âI donât think I ever got over it really.â
âIt must have been awful for you, and donât forget your mum. She must have been gutted when he went off, whatever the circumstances, so itâs inevitable that you should have grown up feeling the same way as her about him. Anyway, theyâre both gone now, so thereâs nothing more you can do. Maybe the solicitor will be able to shed some light on what happened.â
Holly arrived at the offices of Friar, Sutcliffe and Inglis a few minutes after four oâclock. Rather unwisely, she had taken a different road back from Brookford to Exeter and this had turned out to be even narrower and more