Granted, only on Wednesday evenings and only for a few hours, then he would reel me back in around midnight to relieve him on the night shift.
I made another attempt to contact my old acquaintances, but they were too busy with work and family commitments to find time for a drink. The only one available was Steven, a gay guy who I had known for years. He was easy to get along with â he never passed judgment and he was consistently open and honest. But going out with him became boring after a while. He would drag me around gay clubs where Iâd get propositioned by lesbians, or, at best, strange men who wanted threesomes.
One evening, I asked him if we could go somewhere more âtraditionalâ and he reluctantly took me to a lounge bar where his brother Bob worked. He had barely taken a seat before finding himself a new acquaintance. Two cocktails later and they vanished together, kindly paying for my third cocktail as consolation. I sipped it and began to observe the local selection. They were all immersed in conversation, but their eyes were hopping from person to person, searching for something. Searching for what? A cheap fuck? A life partner? I thought about the words that Dr Richardson concluded with that morning: âSophie, I believe you should try to avoid getting involved with anybody, at least until your feelings are a little more balanced.â
âBalance,â I thought. âCommon sense, rational decisions and sensible behavior.â
âAre you bored?â Bob asked, pouring a variety of spirits into a shaker.
âNope,â I replied, smiling. âJust thinking.â
âAbout what?â
âAbout wise decisions,â I replied.
âAh well, that settles it then,â he said, smirking. âNo romance for a while.â
âExactly.â
Between cocktails, we talked about music, films and nothing at all, until I returned to my hideaway, where I found Fred watching TV on the bed.
âDid you have fun?â he asked, as I passed through the door.
âYeah,â I replied.
âYour face is telling me something different.â
âWhat would my âhad-funâ face look like?â I asked, curious.
âDefinitely not like that!â
I shrugged and smiled, a little coyly.
âThere it is.â
The following days were as usual: college, followed by a session with Dr Richardson, followed by an early evening nap, and then CCTV monitoring overnight, where I would alternate between reading and watching television. The ritual became that Ben and Ester would call over at 10 p.m. and we would sit on the steps with a bottle of beer whilst they waited for their bus.
I had been studying hard for the following dayâs exam, so their evening visit was just what I needed. While I was chatting, I saw Mr Scott getting out of his car and leaving the parking lot, in the company of a beautiful woman in towering heels. I wondered whether this was the air hostess Iâd overheard him talking about. I hadnât seen him, or should I say, spied on him through CCTV, since that day. He gave me a polite smile as he left. As soon they crossed the street, Ben announced, âHeâs always with gorgeous women.â
âHmm,â Ester replied, in her thick Spanish accent. âI think gorgeous hookers would be more accurate.â
âHookers?â I asked, puzzled.
âSophie, what planet are you on? Women like that donât exist in real life. Those are high class prostitutes â very high class. You see it from a mile away, and theyâre always so different from one another.â
âThey might be hookers, but theyâre hot as hell,â Ben said, raising his bottle.
Intrigued and also surprised by this possibility, I watched him enter his apartment building. I guess Iâd never considered it, I had only seen the women on the monitors and the camera didnât pick up their features in detail.
âWell, not