forgive him and drive me home. After a few tears and gifts, everything would go back to normal â at least for a few days.
I arrived on time at my brotherâs house and was greeted by a fifty-pound fur ball.
âThis is Scrappy,â said Fred, holding him by the collar.
âScrappy because he never leaves a scrap?â I mocked, stroking the manic dog, which had started to pee with excitement.
Miranda appeared in the doorway with a kitchen towel.
âHey, Iâm Miranda,â she said, leaning over the puddle.
âSophie, the headache of a sister.â
âOh my god youâre a drag!â my brother croaked. âGet in here you moron.â
The house was completely different from what I remembered. For one thing it was much tidier, and it had a womanâs touch now.
Miranda really was beautiful. She had long, flowing dark hair and voluptuous breasts. Yet, she was also slender, with a certain delicacy.
She worked in her familyâs grocery store. My brother had been looking for a bottle of Italian wine and asked her to help him choose. She recommended a 2008 Chianti. For fifteen days in a row, he went back to the store to buy another bottle of the same wine, at which point he declared his love. I sighed. There was something sweet about these hopelessly romantic stories. I always had the impression that couples like this would remember these moments, and in those memories their love for each other would be renewed again and again. The serenity of the evening was shattered when my brother asked the million-dollar question.
âSophie, did he beat you?â
I looked at him, astonished. âWhat are you talking about Fred?â
âSophie, youâre not so good at hiding bruises.â
I bit my lip and stared down at the empty plate, holding my breath.
âFor how long?â he asked.
Miranda stood up and went to occupy herself with the coffee machine, leaving me alone with him. I could feel his eyes but I couldnât bring myself to look up.
âFor how long?â he demanded.
âA yearâ, I said, quietly.
âAnd why the hell didnât you tell me?â
I managed to look him in the eye. âWhy do you think?â
He clenched his shaking hand into a fist.
âYou need to make an appointment with Dr Richardson! You need to go back to therapy,â he demanded.
âFred, no, I donât need it.â
âYou do need it â you need to talk to someone. Donât keep it all inside like you always do.â
I looked at the ceiling and took another deep breath.
âJust give me time⦠Iâm here now⦠and, I came back two days ago andââ I tried to speak but I was choking on my feelings. Eventually I told him:
âIâm not too well Fred⦠Iâm never too well⦠I donât know whatâs wrong with me, and this whole thing has caught me off guard, and you can imagine what itâs been like.â
A moment later the floodgates opened.
âCome over to the couch.â He lifted me up.
âSorry, Miranda,â I sobbed.
âDonât worry Sophie,â she said, with a mixture of concern and embarrassment.
âWhatâs wrong with me?â I croaked between sobs. âWhy canât I find a normal one?â
âThereâs nothing wrong with you Sophie, youâre just a magnet for assholes.â
âFred!â Miranda shrieked.
âSorry Sophie, I donât know how to fix it.â He put his hands on my cheeks. âBut I promise you this â youâre normal, and youâre the sweetest person that I know.â
I sniffed and let out another cry.
âYou can sleep here tonight, if you like,â Miranda said. âIâll prepare the couch for you.â
âYes,â Fred said pre-emptively. âSleep here and weâll call Dr Richardson first thing tomorrow morning.â
I nodded and inhaled deeply, trying to harness the