deal. âNathaniel can show you where the linens are kept, Isobel, so you can make up your bed. Now, you get settled, and your mom and I will rustle up some sandwiches for dinner. Itâs been along day. Later we can play a round of Scrabble together.â Dick clapped his hands like he was a kindergarten teacher and it was activity time. My mom was giving him a tearful smile like she couldnât believe how brave and caring he was being by letting me have the bedroom.
Nathaniel and I stared at each other. I wasnât sure where things had gotten so off track between us. Actually, weâd never really been on track. When I met him, I thought he looked rich, like when he was a baby his diapers had been cashmere. He came across as the kind of person who would never hang out with someone like me, and so far, that had proven to be the case.
âLook,â I began, but before I could say another word, Nathaniel turned around and left, slamming the door behind him.
âIâll talk to him.â Dick followed him out, treating the door more gently.
Now that we were alone, my mom shot me a look.
âI didnât do anything. Dick told me to pick out a bedroom.â
âWould you please call him Richard?â My mom paced the room and then stopped to gaze out the window. âI know youâre not happy, but is it asking too much that you try to make this work?â
âMom, this is my senior yearââ I began.
âThis is the beginning of the rest of my life,â she cut in. âDo you know how many things I put on hold for you? How much I sacrificed over the years? Now I have a chance to start over. We have a chance to start over. Having Richard as a stepfather is going to open doors for you, too. Canât you give me one year of your life when Iâve given you seventeen?â
I loved how she had this way of making my entire existence a burden to her when I hadnât asked to be born in the first place. âYou donât believe me, but Iâm doing the best I can. Iâm here. Iâm trying, but itâs hard. I donât know anyone.â
âYou know Nathaniel.â
âNathaniel hates me,â I pointed out.
âHe doesnât hate you. Heâs just having a hard time with all of this.â
âWelcome to the party.â
âNathaniel is sensitive because of what happened to his mom and sister.â
âWhat did happen? Was it a car accident?â My mom had always been vague about how Dickâs first wife and Evelyn had died. It didnât seem like the kind of thing I could ask a lot of questions about without coming across like an insensitive jerk. For some reason, with all the wedding planning there had never been a good time to bring up the dead first wife.
âNo, it was a boating accident.â
My knowledge of sailboats and yachts was pretty sketchy. All I could picture was some kind of Titanic -type incident, but there werenât even any icebergs out here. What else could happen to a boat? Did it run into another boat? Isnât the ocean big enough that they shouldnât run into anything else?
âWow.â I was at a loss for anything else to say. How did Nathaniel stand this house, with the sound of the ocean in the background like a constant reminder? No wonder the guy was edgy.
âRichard says Nathaniel hasnât been the same since the accident. He withdrew from his friends, quit the soccer team, and wonât talk about it with Richard no matter how hard he tries. He wonât even step foot on the boat.â
âDick kept the boat?â My voice came out a little screechy, and my mom raised an eyebrow. âI mean, Richard still has the boat? Isnât that weird?â By weird I meant disturbing as hell, and morbid, but I was trying to be more balanced in my communication style.
âIf it were just any boat, that would be one thing, but itâs a handmade wooden sailboat