has always been a problem for me. But the Memory Boy persona is not what Iâm aiming for at my new school.
Ninety seconds later, which always seems longer when youâre sitting on a bus with the driver shooting daggered looks back at you, two figures hurry down the road, waving their arms and jostling backpacks.
âYouâre late,â the driver says when they finally make it to the bus. âNext time I might not be here waiting.â
I just shake my head. The driverâs voice is sour milk.
âSorry,â the girls say in unison, but theyâre smiling. The bus lurches forward and the girl in the white jacket almost falls on top of me. The bus driver smirks in the mirror as they land in the seat behind me.
âThat guy is such a jerk,â one of them says.
âI hate riding the bus,â the other one says.
I turn around. âHe wanted to leave you, but I made him wait.â
âThanks,â white jacket says. âYouâre new, arenât you?â
âYeah.â
âYouâre a freshman, right?â the other one asks. Both of them have straight, brown hair and identical jackets, but her jacket is black.
âYeah.â I want to say that Iâm from California because that might impress them and God knows I need to say something impressive to make up for yesterday, but then they might ask what school I went to before or why I moved here and pretty soon Iâd be telling lies upon lies, and I hate lying. Iâd have to remember the lie forever and that goes against my grain of remembering things accurately.
âCool. I like your tan,â she says, then they start talking to each other like I donât exist. After feeling awkward for fifteen seconds, I turn back around. I could tell them that the bus was three minutes early today and that they might need to start out earlier tomorrow or the same thing will happen again, but I donât say anything. Being a know-it-all never helped me win a lot of friends back at Pascal Elementary.
I havenât made a ton of friends yet, but itâs only the third day of school. Brad Soberg sat with me at lunch the first day, and yesterday a guy I remember from Geometry roll call as Bennet comma Kevin sat across from me. âHowâs it going?â he said, then ate the rest of his chicken sandwich in silence.
Itâs not like I thought Iâd be one of the cool kids. Well, maybe that possibility made a cameo in my mind when I imagined this new life in a town thatâs less than a hundred miles from the Canadian border. I thought that being from the land of movie stars and beaches might make me at least appear to be cool. But the first day of school erased any hopes of that happening when I saw the football and hockey jocks pushing freshmen guys in the hallway, and some of those freshmen guys had forty pounds on me and wore letter jackets.
Now Iâve readjusted the dream to just fitting in and having a few friends and not thinking about Dink, if thatâs even possible. And not letting anyone find out about my past or my memory. Reinventing yourself is harder than I thought, especially when you donât like to lie about your past. And especially when the past keeps getting in the way.
But hope springs eternal, and today Iâm seeing Halle Phillips again.
Halle Phillips, who once brought a shark tooth for Show and Tell from her trip to Florida, then a postcard from that same place the next day, and the following week she brought a picture of her grandpa, and after that her favorite candyâgreen jelly beans, which she shared with our class; and ⦠my head swims as more memories fight their way up. I focus on my watch, staring at the dials like Dr. Anderson taught me until I can push the memories back down. Sometimes it works. Other times itâs like trying to turn off a running faucet by using a broken spigot.
When I look up Iâm the last one on the bus. The driver is