in his big brown eyes.
“Knock it off, Dino,” I said, getting back to my feet. “The guilt trip thing doesn’t work on me.”
There were two notes on the kitchen table, along with a big hamper of some of Michelle’s home-made muffins.
Lisa Jeanne , the first note read. Thanks again for watching the place while we’re away. I wish you could have come with us. You’ve got our numbers, so just have fun, and don’t let Dino boss you around.
Love,
Michelle.
PS—Alex has to drop by to get some blueprints off his computer. He’s got a key, though, so don’t worry about hanging around to let him in or anything.
My heart started to beat a little faster. Alex Locke was going to be coming by? Well, I might not hang around for him, but if I didn’t have anything better to do, I might just hang out by the pool in case he dropped in while I was sunbathing...
Dude! I said to myself. Quit it! You’re as bad as Darci!
The second note was from Mark. His handwriting was messy, like he’d written it in a rush.
Gonna miss you, babe , it said. I’ll try to call you from my grandma’s place. Don’t get lonely without me xx
“Thanks for the romance, lover,” I said to the empty kitchen.
*
Mark and I had sex for the first time after our three-month anniversary. Lots of girls I know didn’t like their first time. In fact, Darci told me her first time was about as much fun as being stuck on a runaway pony with a dildo strapped to its back.
I laughed so hard about that. Darci told me right as we were sneaking up the narrow hallway to her room after breaking curfew. She whispered it in my ear while we were creeping back in. We were trying so hard not to make any noise on the old hardwood floor. We were carrying our shoes and I almost fell over I was giggling so much. I had to stick my hand over my mouth and tiptoe past her little sister’s room with my shoulders shaking.
I got a nervous, fluttery f eeling in my tummy after that whenever I thought about sex. All I could think about was the look on Darci’s when she was telling me that.
That first night with Mark wasn’t so bad, though. I was shaking, I was so nervous, but I pretended not to show it. I just smiled at him and lay back in the soft , cool silk pillows against the headboard, pretending like I wasn’t wound so tight I was almost ready to jump out of my skin.
But I think Mark was more nervous than I was—he was getting really flustered trying to stay quiet so his parents wouldn’t hear us. He tried about ten times to get the condom wrapper open. After his fingers started shaking I got out my little scissors from my bag and snipped the top off. I watched the little blue sliver of wrapper fall to the floor and made a mental note to sneak it out of the house before his mom cleaned his room next.
Finally we were naked in his big bed but every tiny little sound made him jump. When we did it for the first time it was over pretty quickly. There was barely time for us to start getting into it when he suddenly grabbed my waist and came like a fire hydrant.
Then he got more embarrassed than I’ve ever seen anyone get, and he went red. I could feel his face burning in the dark. He mumbled something about sorry for not going longer, and he didn’t want to talk about it no matter how much I told him it didn’t matter. Finally we both pretended to go to sleep. Then he did go to sleep, and I spent the next half hour staring up at the ceiling , listening to Mark’s sleeping breath. It wasn’t exactly the magic I’d expected. But I guess it wasn’t the magic he’d expected either.
We’ve gotten better at it since then, but we’ve still never had what you’d call a marathon session. I keep trying to take it up a level, to talk dirty to him, or to get wild. But he gets really uncomfortable with that kind of stuff. I guess that’s why he never liked Darci; she’s got a (well-deserved) reputation as a bad girl.
I don’t know, I guess I just think that sex