a girlish voice, âYou did mention the good stuff? The twenty-year-old port perhaps.â
âOh, yeah, great,â Robert says.
She stands on her toes, kisses him solemnly on the mouth. Robert stares at her through half-shut eyes. But sheâs so nice, he thinks. Anne is so nice. The perfect wife. I always said that, didnât I?
âYouâre not tired,â she says, âare you?â
âOh, no, wide awake.â
âAnd raring to go,â Anne says, with a sweet nervous smile, as if sheâs said something outrageous.
Chapter
5
⢠ Robert sits in the back of the place, the one Kathy found. Itâs just off Lex, six blocks below where they work. Better than a dive, but not the kind of place other editors would go. âA good safe place,â Kathy said. Just hearing the word safe made him feel uneasy, guilty.
Heâs in a booth, staring at the front, watching, waiting. Sheâs a few minutes late. The first time they did this she was there ahead of him. He came in, saw her, it felt good. Now he has time to think, worry. He stares furtively at each of the people walking in the door, or walking by him. Does he know them? Could anybody recognize him? Does it make any difference? The light is very low. Still, he keeps the parka on, sitting there with his arms on the table, his shoulders hunched up to cover part of his face. He feels obvious, conspicuous. He always laughed at people sneaking out of porno stores or cruising the hookers on Tenth. Hell, he thought, if I do that, Iâm not hiding. Bullshit. The more hidingthe better, thatâs how he sees it now.
You donât see anybody you know for years. Naturally heâd see someone here, now. Hey, Rob, howâs Anne? You alone? Can I join you? The obnoxious little scenario unrolls in his head. Whatâs up? Youâre not waiting for somebody, are you? Business, Rob? Hey, youâre not . . . running around, are you?  . . . Robert imagines snatching the guy up, throwing him over the bar. A little late. He knows. Everybody knows.
Robert looks at his fingers, realizes heâs tapping the table. His body feels tense, his mouth dry. He hates waiting anyway. But now heâs waiting for Kathy, and theyâre bound to be discovered, and besides they donât have that much time.
Just a little meeting, pretend itâs casual, no big deal, doesnât mean anything. Well, what the hell does it mean?
âJesus,â he mutters.
I just wish sheâd come in the door. That smile. The way she glides in, a little cocky, a little flirtatious. Dressed up in a nice, elegant way, one of those executive outfits. But you donât forget itâs a woman inside there. Not for a second. Oh, she makes sure of that.
Thatâs the thing. Sheâs running this whole game? Controlling it? Feels like that sometimes. But for what? Love, lust, getting ahead? Or sheâs this little girl falling for the big editor? Maybe a Cosmo girl, doing what that dumb magazine tells her to do, try some new adventure. Maybe sheâs just friendly. Maybe she doesnât fucking know. Damn it.
Robert feels the insanity of being here. Drifting out of work a little early. Making excuses. Hell, lying. Trying to look invisible. Hoping nobody notices when he walks south instead of toward Grand Central. And for what? So he can sit across the table from her for a half hour?
Jesus. Am I crazy?
Ahhhhh. He sees her framed in the doorway. Fifty feet away, he can feel the heat of her, the joy. God, what a rush. He sits up straighter, stares at her, canât help smiling.
Come on, baby. Come on down here. Iâm waiting just for you. . . .
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Not much time left, if heâs going to catch the 6:04. Finally Robert says, âSo why are we here?â
Thatâs good, she thinks. Either the dumbest question sheâs ever heard, or the smartest.
She lets a few