Iâve never seen her do gardening, not to mention cooking, in my life.
ââand itâs in a terrific school district. Youâll be going to Beverly Hills High! Isnât that wonderful?â
I gulp. Isnât that where those 902-whatever kids go?
Maggie points frantically at my arm, and I realize Iâve been twisting the phone cord around my wrist and my hand is starting to turn blue.
Slowly I untangle myself while Mom goes on and on. All about how thereâs this wonderful deli within walking distance. How weâll be so close to the beach. How maybe next year, if things go well, we could even put in a pool. âPractically everybody in L.A. has a pool, Zoe. Youâll love it here!â I know she must be excited, but doesnât she realize I havenât said a word?
I should be as excited as Mom is. But I feel numb.
Iâm going home. But home is Manhattan. Or now I guess itâs Ambler, Pennsylvania.
âWell, I have to run, sweetie,â Mom says hurriedly. âIâm due at the studio, and the traffic here is murder. Tomorrow Iâm off for a few days, so Iâll talk to Gran about the arrangements then.â
âThe arrangements?â
âBye, honey! I love you!â She blows me a kiss over the phone, and then sheâs gone. The dial tone hums in my ear.
I hang up the phone and just stare at the floor.
âZoe?â Maggie says. âWhatâs going on?â
I glance up at my cousinâa cousin I barely knew a year ago. A cousin whoâs as different from me as a dog is from a cat. A cousin whoâs â¦like the sister I never had.
âMom got a job,â I tell her. âI guess Iâm going home.â
Maggieâs mouth drops open. âYouâre going back to New York?â
I shake my head. âTo L.A.â
âL.A.?â she exclaims. âBut thatâs not your home! You stayed there for, whatâfive whole days at Christmas?â She kicks at the leg of the kitchen table with the scuffed toe of her sneaker.
Whatâs she so mad about? Iâm the one who has to go, not her.
Maggie glares at the floor. âIf any place is your home, itâs here with us.â
She glances up at me, and a scared look passes between us. Weâve had our rough times. She had trouble sharing Gran with me when I first came, because Granâs the only mom sheâs ever known. But weâve been through a lot together since then. Maggieâs problems with schoolâ¦my trouble training Sneakersâ¦sharing a bathroom (she says Iâm prissy; I say sheâs a slob). We cried together when Granâs friend Jane lost her dog Yum-Yum to cancer. And we both understand what itâs like not to have a complete set of parents.
âCome on,â she says roughly. âLetâs see if Gran has any news about those crazy parrots.â Itâs like I can read her mindâsheâs breaking up the scene before it gets too mushy.
I follow Maggie into the clinic, but my thoughts are a thousand miles away. Three thousand miles, to be exactâthe distance between Ambler and Los Angeles.
A real home of our own⦠Mom and I have never had that. At least, weâve never had a house. But isnât a home more than that? Gradually I become aware of a dull, sad ache in my stomach. Itâs like homesicknessâthe same sensation I had when I first arrived here. Except this time, itâs the thought of leaving here that hurts.
Chapter Four
W e have no time to chat about the phone call. Gran has plans of her own. âWeâre taking a little field trip,â she announces.
âYes!â David pumps his fist in the air. He loves animalsâespecially horsesâbut cleanup chores arenât his favorite part of working at Dr. Macâs Place.
âWhere are we going?â Sunita asks.
âTo the zoo,â Gran explains.
Now we all cheer. A zoo trip beats chores any