down?â
âWhy?â I ask.
âSit down!â she orders, sounding as if sheâs bursting with news.
âWhat, Mom? What?â
âZoeâyou can come home !â
Now I sit down. Actually, I stumble into a kitchen chair. âHome? Weâre going back to New York?â
At the sink, Maggie stares at me. She waves her arms at me and mouths, What? What?!
âI have a job!â Mom squeals into the phone. I hold the receiver out and rub my ear.
âWow! I heard that!â Maggie says. She comes over and sticks her head next to the receiver, trying to listen in. I wave her away.
âIâm going prime time!â Mom announces proudly.
When I donât say anything, she adds, âI got the part!â
âWhat part?â
Mom laughs. âHoney, the part Iâ¦Zoe, Iâm sure I wrote you about it. Didnât I? Itâs the lead female role on a new series theyâre shooting for next fall. Iâll be playing a surgeon!â
Maybe she did mention this part. But Iâve been hearing this for a yearâthere have been so many auditions and promisesâand everything always seems to fall through. So Iâve learned not to get my hopes up.
âWhenâs the callback?â I ask.
âSweetheart, itâs a done deal. Iâve already got a contract!â
She sounds so thrilled, I start to get excited, too. My mother on prime-time TV!
âButâwhat about movies?â I sputter.
Mom laughs. âOne thing at a time, sweetie. Just you wait, Iâm on my way now. This is the big time, what Iâve been working for all these years.â
âOh, Mom, really?â I say, almost afraid to believe it. âThereâs no catch? Youâre not leaving something out?â
Something jingles across the phone lines.
I hazard a guess: âUh, pocket change? Youâre working as a mime on the streets of L.A.?â
Mom laughs. âOh, Zoe, donât be silly. Itâs keys!â
âKeys?â
âAs in house keys. The keys to the house I just bought!â
âYou bought a house ?â I should be ecstatic. I should be screaming and jumping up and down. This is what Iâve been dreaming about for almost a year. Me and Momâtogether. But instead I feel like I just got the wind knocked out of me.
When she left me at Granâs last summer, I felt like an unwanted kitten abandoned on a doorstep. And ever since, my heartâs been on a roller-coaster ride. Every time Mom builds me up with her promises, things always seem to come crashing down. And now, just when Iâve finally started to feel at home here, out of the blue she tells me sheâs bought us a house.
A home? In Southern California ?
Tears spring to my eyes out of nowhere. Maggie looks at me in alarm. I shake my head at her, as if to insist Iâm OK.
âWell, itâs not a new house, actually,â Mom says with a laugh. âAnd itâs not huge, but itâs adorable, Zoeâjust perfect for the two of us. Like one of the pictures you used to draw when you were little.â
She remembers that? When I was little, Mom did all kinds of odd jobs while she was trying to get work as an actress, and we lived in a small fifth-floor walk-up apartment. At night she used to snuggle in bed with me and read me fairy tales. Then weâd talk about the little house we were going to live in one day. And sometimes Iâd draw pictures of it, complete with a picket fence and a backyard with flowers and a dog. After she landed the role on the soap opera, we moved into a fancy high-rise with a doorman, and I guess I forgot about my pictures and our little fantasy home.
But apparently this house is no fantasy.
âItâs got high ceilings and a front porch and a sweet little garden in the back,â Mom continues, âso we can grow flowers and vegetablesââ
Excuse me, vegetables? Momâs planning to grow vegetables ?