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holding. They laugh, and Kelsey spends the next hour telling us everything about this new guy. He is indeed a Ray’s player, which I figured. It’s still the very early stages of their relationship, but they’re having fun and it’s taking her mind off her loser ex-husband. Her ex was the biggest ASS. We all hated him. I personally threatened his life on several occasions for the way he talked to Kelsey. She needs some joy in her life, and if this guy is what’s making her smile, I’ll support that relationship with all that I can.
    I don’t want any of my friends to experience the emotional angst that seems to have followed me through this life, starting with my childhood and my insanely irresponsible parents.
    Everything was better after I left home for good to go to college. Jason was a senior when I entered college. He’s always been my best friend and I knew I’d always be safe when he was close by. It wasn’t that I wasn’t safe without him. By the time he left home for college, I was capable of taking care of myself when my mother ran off with whoever was occupying her time, and Jason was always close enough by that he could be there in fifteen minutes if I really needed him.
    During college, I lived in the dorm, but Jason and Jed’s apartment was close. They spent a lot of time on campus anyway. That’s how I met Jed. He and Jason were best friends and roommates. Jed and I immediately became close friends. Our relationship kind of developed because we were always hanging out together. It wasn’t ever an instant, head-over-heels attraction. I grew to love Jed very much, and like Jason, he took care of me even when I didn’t want him or need him to. But he made me feel secure and I was desperate for that in my life. Our life together was perfectly…imperfect.
    If I’m honest with myself, there were many days and nights that I felt lonely and unconnected to Jed, even when he was in the same room. Sometimes because he was so focused on his career ambitions and other times because we struggled to connect intimately and physically. We were best friends, deeply supportive and protective of one another, but the physical part of our marriage never came easily. We had sex very sporadically, usually scheduled or requested to fulfill a need in each of us. Once it was over, we were back to best friends with occasional benefits.
    We were masters at every other aspect of our marriage and life together. We were happy enough. There was never a day that I didn’t feel safe and provided for, and for a girl like me with a rocky start in life, that meant a lot. I loved Jed so much for the way he cared for me that I was willing to take him in whatever capacity he was willing to give. The fact that Jason approved and supported our relationship was key. Jason trusted Jed and knew he would be loyal and take care me. So at the end of the day, what Jed offered was enough for me.
    I trusted Jason’s judgment, so when he gave Jed his blessing to marry me, that told me that I was making a good decision in saying yes…I did, and I mostly never regretted it. Jed provided an amazing life for me from the beginning and soon after for Sierra, when she finally made her surprise entrance into the world. Even after his death, he made sure all his bases were covered in the event of his demise. That made me a little mad, I must say. I know it’s the responsible thing to do, but to put so much thought into life going on without him seems crazy. And the fact is he was right…it does go on.
    Sierra and I will never have to worry about losing our home, me having to work to pay the bills, pay for college, or frankly anything else. We’re all set financially, but emotionally we’re a disaster! Well, I should say I’m a disaster. Sierra is great and strong. I think she would like to have a man in our life to do the things daddy’s do. She used to ask if we could go to the store and pick out a new daddy. Strangers would sigh and say how cute