Throwing Love #5 (The Throwing Love Romance Series - Book #5) Read Online Free Page B

Actually I did know. I didn't like it.
    “Bennett, I am not in the mood. You really need to consider
calling first before you show up here from now on. Considering how things were
left between us, I think it's the least you could have done, don't you?”
    “I'm not here to fight with you, Emmi, please.”
    I stared at him, and he looked so sad and lonely. It could
have just been an act, though. Guys are good at those. I wasn't sure if I
should let him in at all. I still had not made any decisions about the things I
wanted in my life. I didn't want a visit from Bennett to confuse the situation.
Being with him always confused me, especially when things went bad.
    I probably couldn't just leave him standing there, though.
It was rude and I didn't want to hurt his feelings. Whatever he had to say, he
could say quickly and head out. He had a game to play; after all, so how long
could he really stay, anyways? I decided to let him in and held the door open
wide enough to let him through.
    “What do you have to say, Bennett?” I asked as I motioned
for him to come in. “I don't have a lot of time since I'm going to be covering
your game.”
    A smirk crossed his face and it annoyed me slightly. “I just
want to talk, Emmi. There's no need to be so hostile.”
    “Yeah, you would think that.”
    “Look, I want you, okay. I know you don't believe that and I
could certainly understand that since you were so upset by our last encounter.
But we have a bit of a problem here. I want to be with you, Emmi, but my dream
has always been to be a major league baseball player. I don't want to have to
give that up for anything. I wish you could understand that.”
    I stayed silent. Again, I wasn't sure how I felt about
anything, so there was no point in me trying to dig too deep with things with
Bennett. Otherwise, I could say or do something that would be wrong. His
arrival at my door didn't help to unravel the confusion of my emotions.
    “Having said that, I do want to work things out with you,
but in a way we are both satisfied and fulfilled in our relationship.”
    “Really?”
    “Yes, I really do. But I also don't want to jeopardize my
chances at a major league career. I love you, Emmi, but just like you, I want
it all.”
    I couldn't believe what he was saying. It was everything
that I had wanted for so long. I almost wanted to burst into tears, I was so
happy. This was what I had wanted the day Bennett had left. Why hadn't he
figured out how to say these things at that time? On one hand it was so
frustrating, and yet I was so happy that he had finally shown up and said
something. I needed him to say these things to me, and it was incredible to
finally hear it. I felt like kissing him immediately.
    There were so many emotions running through my head that I
could barely stand it. There was confusion, happiness, and fear running through
me all at once. I loved all the feelings. But what I wanted most was Bennett.
He was all I ever wanted.
    I grabbed the back of his neck and pulled him towards me. My
mouth met his and fire coursed through my body. I needed Bennett badly and as I
kissed him passionately, a tear rolled down my cheek. I was so happy to be with
him. When we pulled away, he just looked at me and smiled. I wiped away the
lone tear, feeling happier than ever.
    “Look, Bennett, I totally understand. When I said those
things, it was out of anger and frustration with the situation that I found
myself in. I didn't know what else to say at the time. I was desperate. I
should never have said the things that I did. I didn't want you to have to
choose between baseball and me. I just wanted to be here, too, ya know?”
    “Yes, sweetheart. I know. I'm sorry for treating you the way
I did, you don't deserve it.”
    He moved into me again and kissed me. His tongue found mine
and I felt complete once again. I needed Bennett in so many different ways. I
was falling deeply and madly in love with him. When our lips touched,