glasses. He picked up one and handed it to Ginger. She looked at the glass for several seconds, looked at her husband and finally reached for the glass.
âI have always cared, Gin,â he said. âI justâ¦â
âYou just what, Paul?â
âI just lost who I was,â he said.
Ginger did not respond. She sat back on the couch, wine in hand.
Paul went on. âI want you to realize that Iâm sorry.â
âYou said you want a divorce, Paul,â she shot out.
âI know and I didnât mean it,â he said.
âSo why would you say something so hurtful?â Ginger said. âYou said you wanted to get away from me. You think that didnât hurt me, hurt my feelings?â
âI didnât mean it,â he said. âListen, I was depressed. I was miserable. You wonât believe this, but I thought I would be doing the right thing by letting you move on. I didnât see anything getting better andâ¦Iâ¦I donât know where that came fromâdivorceâbut I just said it.â
âYou donât just say you want a divorce, Paul,â she said.
âI just said it,â he responded. âI donât want a divorce, Gin. I want us to get back to where we used to be. I really do.â
âWhy? Why would you want that after how bad it has been?â she asked.
âPlease taste your wine,â Paul said. âItâs good.â
âPaul,â Ginger said, exasperated.
âOK, Iâm just saying,â he said. He sipped his wine and added: âAnyway, think about it: Our baby is off to college. Itâs only you and me. This is the perfect time for us to find what we used to have.â
Ginger finally tasted the wine. It was goodâclean, light, fresh, floral.
âI donât know how to respond to this, Paul,â she said. âI was in the car just now and I felt like I was dying. I dreaded coming in here and dealing with your attitude and total disregard for me. I literally was in the car crying. I couldnât breathe.â
âWhat?â
âYes, Iâm serious,â she said. âI felt like there was nothing for me to come into this house to, no love. So, for you to tell me you didnât mean all the awful things you said to me, the way you have treated me the last few weeks.â¦I donât know.â
âYouâre supposed to be skeptical,â Paul said. âI understand it. Iâm not asking you to do anything except have an open mind. I want to work this thing out. Itâs very important to me.â
Ginger took a big gulp of the wine, and it went straight to her head. She sipped more, and she could feel a change coming over her from it. When that happened, she became audacious.
âSo, whatâs this about? You want sex?â she said. âAll of a sudden youâre serving me wine and you want to work it out? Look at you. Youâre all shaven and even have on cologne. Whatâs going on? I donât get it. It was bad before, but the last three weeks have been terrible.
âAnd now you want to work it out? Thatâs hard to believe. I donât care what you say.â
Paul knew his wife and he knew that the wine was kicking in. He also knew that challenging her would result in her getting more and more combative, especially after she finished her glass and immediately poured herself another.
There were times when he would challenge her. But this was not one of them.
âYou will see over time,â he said. âGinger, letâs make this work.â
âHow do you propose we do this, Mr. I Want A Divorce?â she said.
Paul smiled.
âWhatâs so funny?â she wanted to know. âYou laughing at me?â
âNo. I was thinking we should take a trip,â he said.
âA trip?â Ginger cracked. âTo where? Fantasy Island?â
âI was thinking the trip we have been talking about for yearsâto