alone!”
Ani lost track of Sebastian after he headed over to the keg, and she was hanging out with her friends having a good time until she suddenly overheard some kids whispering about her looking pregnant, and then the next thing she knew Sebastian had decked his best friend and they were out on the lawn yelling at each other about school and throwing the chance of a lifetime away.
“She’s the chance of my lifetime!” Sebastian screamed at his best friend Tommy Flannigan. They had both gotten full scholarships to BU and were going to be roommates.
“ Bast, what’s going on?” Ani asked, coming up behind him and grabbing his arm. She could tell he had been drinking; he smelled like beer and was wobbling on his feet as he yelled at Tommy.
“I’ll tell you what’s going on,” Tommy yelled at Ani . “He’s not going to BU with me because you can’t keep your fucking legs closed!”
Ani was still reeling from Tommy’s words when Sebastian let out a roar and tackled his best friend to the ground. They fought like wild animals until two of their football teammates pulled them apart and got between them.
“That’s the big plan that you refused to share with me?” Ani screamed at Sebastian in disbelief. “I won’t let you throw away your dreams for me.” She sobbed and turned to run away.
“I’m not throwing anything away,” Sebastian protested, grabbing Ani’s arm and pulling her down onto the ground beside him. “I’m still going to BU baby,” he whispered in Ani’s hair, holding her tightly. “I’m just not going to live on campus. I’m staying here at home with you and Eva. I’m going to work with my father on the weekends and make money to pay for our baby.”
“But you’ll miss out on the college experience,” Ani choked, overwhelmed by Sebastian’s admission.
“Yes, b ut I won’t miss out on being with the girl I love and raising our daughter,” he murmured gently. “I won’t miss out on you and Eva.”
People started to gather on the lawn, talking about the fight and Ani’s pregnancy, and suddenly Ani just wanted to get out of there and go home.
“I want to go home, Bast,” she whispered, glancing around at the crowd of kids staring at them. “Just get me out of here, please.”
Ani knew Sebastian had been drinking but she just didn’t think about it when he led her to his car. She just wanted to get away from all the whispers and stares.
“Hurry up,” Ani nudged Sebastian when he fumbled with the key in the ignition. Her face burned in embarrassment and she turned away from the car window to avoid the curious stares of her classmates.
Ani shook the memories of that night away as she stared down at Sebastian with anguish-filled eyes.
“ The accident was my fault, not yours Bast,” she whispered, tears sliding down her cheeks. “I knew you were drinking that night. I smelled it on you when you were fighting with Tommy and I still told you to take me home.”
Sebastian rolled off of Ani and pulled her into his arms, brushing her tears away gently.
“No baby, it wasn’t,” he murmured, kissing her eyes, and trailing his lips across her face.
“I told them, Bast. I promise you, I told the prosecutor a thousand times that it was my fault,” Ani whispered, burying her face against Sebastian’s chest.
“I know you did,” Sebastian replied quietly, “and that’s why I had to let you go A. You wouldn’t let me accept responsibility for what I did. In the beginning I agreed with you. I thought it was just a tragic accident and I wanted them to let me go so I could apologize and do my community service and move on. But after Raffi was killed, I realized that it could never be that simple. There are consequences to all of our actions Ani,” Sebastian whispered softly. “And my actions left a young husband and father childless and a widow. I killed our baby A, our daughter,” he whispered, his lips in Ani’s hair. “You never made me get behind the