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eavesdropped on those words that passed between them. No, he didn’t mind. Landmarks were like that. They slipped by. They did not belong to you. And if you put out your hand to touch them, they parted and dissolved and grew flimsy like the world after champagne. And he didn’t care. For in the night now, his body sprawled like a toy’s, the world receded, he could reach out and touch her.
    ‘Don’t listen to all that nonsense, Willy.’
    ‘Something to occupy her with.’
    So why then? Why him?
    He watched the cigar smoke drifting through the beams of sunlight over the counter.
    He had planned nothing. Not for himself. And yet he knew: plans emerged. You stepped into them.
    That was why he liked it at Ellis’s. The print-works. Setting up the type so that there was correctness of spacing, the letter size graded according to the importance of the words; an overall effect of regularity and order. The content was unimportant. It was the layout that mattered. And just to show it was not a mere exercise, a playing with shapes, you had to roll up your sleeves and get your fingers covered in ink or machine grease. There was always a little mess, if there were patterns. Old Ellis called him ‘my lad’. He had a bald head and a thick, drooping, melan-cholymoustache. They were disappointed, of course, Mother and Father. Had they got him to grammar school just for that? (‘Lacks talent and initiative,’ his reports had said.) Where was the return for their scrimping and pushing? But he liked the daily routine, the taking of orders, the clattering machine room at the back with the grille-like window overlooking the Surrey canal, and almost jaunted to work, on and off the tram, with a concealed laugh inside him.
    He planned nothing, though every day had its pattern and was spent in making patterns. Until she came in that day – Mr Ellis was at lunch and he had temporary charge – to place her order.
    ‘Laundry lists,’ she said. ‘The laundry lists and other material for our new branch. Mr Ellis was phoned, and I’d hoped …’
    She looked peeved at not being able to see the proprietor; annoyed at the grubby little print-works and him in his shirt sleeves with inky fingers; and annoyed too at having been sent out like an errand girl on this mission. For that showed. Someone who might have sent an assistant, an office boy, had deliberately sent her and she didn’t like it. She was meant to command, not obey.
    ‘You had better attend to it.’ And she did command, and he obliged. ‘This is what we want.’
    He took the typed-out sheets and scanned them through, his pencil poised. It was only the simplest of things, a laundry list, but as if to show, since she was to command, that he was slow, had no initiative, he read aloud the words in front of him:
    ‘… Waistcoats, Men’s Shirts, Collars (stiff), Collars (semi-stiff), Vests (long-sleeved) –’
    But she stopped him. ‘That’s a fine little rag-doll.’ It was meant to be peremptory. Her lips drew inwards. But he grinned as though at a quite good-humoured remark.And no, he wouldn’t be bothered by her cuttingness. It wasn’t what it seemed.
    He took the papers and showed her the samples of lettering and layout, explaining slowly, for that was his way. And she listened, never for one moment losing that air of authority, yet held, perhaps, by his simpleton’s manner, by his ungrudging deference. Her hand drew in her collar. ‘Yes,’ she said curtly, ‘Yes, yes.’ And through his labouring words, as through a little mesh of visible dull print, he looked at her beauty.
    When he saw her a second time, three days later, walking on the common, it was different. Twice. That was pattern, that had the feel about it of something meant to be. She was leaning on the railings overlooking the space where the children played on swings, roundabouts and see-saws, and she had the same look of someone sent unwillingly on an errand, loitering resentfully. So he must stop (a