hearing me playing guitarâhearing me singing âwas petrifying. I never even sang if my parents were in the house. I only practiced when I knew I was alone. I had never realized my unfinished songs would drift outside into the street and be carried to Sophie on the treasonous desert wind.
âIâm not sure Princeton wants me to send them a playlist of my crappy songs,â I said.
âYour songs arenât crappy at all, but you should finish one sometime. Iâve noticed they always seem to cut off in the middle. Iâd love to hear a whole one someday.â
I didnât know how to respond. I had used her name in my songs before. I glanced over to see if she had a look on her face that might indicate she was aware that I sang about her, but she was playing with the tape deck again, trying to get the Phantom of the Opera cassette to come out.
âSo where else did you apply to college?â she said.
It was time to feel stupid again.
âPrinceton was the only place I applied,â I said.
âYouâre kidding. â
âI genuinely thought they would accept me. In retrospect, it wasnât my strongest idea.â
â Thousands and thousands of students donât get in. Just looking at the percentages, youâre out of your mind.â
âMy grades were basically perfect,â I said. âMy SAT scores were at the low end of Princetonâs average, but I thought they would at least put me in the mix. I guess I figured that I wanted it so much there was no way they would say no and just leave me here.â
Sophie whistled, a long, thin whoooooo. âWow. Iâve never heard of anybody applying to just one college. I mean, if only one college in the world existed, it would make sense, but, yâknowâ¦there are quite a few.â
âSubconsciously, I think I must want to be stranded forever in the desert,â I said. âWhere are you going to school?â
As soon as the question passed my lips, I regretted askingit. Here I was talking about how I was worried about Princeton, and I didnât even know if she was going to college. Sophie wasnât in any of my AP classes, I never saw her in SAT test prep, and she didnât do any extracurricular activities, as far as I knew. On weekends, she usually just disappeared with her motorcycleâto see the ex-boyfriend, presumably, which probably isnât something you can really highlight on a college application. In the same way she seemed to be beyond popularity, she seemed to be beyond academia.
âI didnât mean to assume you were going to college if youâre not, which is a perfectly fine choice,â I said. âLots of people who donât go to college become entrepreneurs or artists or captains of industryâ¦.â
âIâm going to Princeton,â she said.
âWhat?â I said.
My mouth went dry.
âIâm going to Princeton. I applied early action and I got in. The letter came in December, I think.â
A cold wind blew through my car, though it was ninety degrees outside. Somewhere in the distance, I heard a chorus of hyenas laughing. The Phantom of the Opera cast recording suddenly grew louderâ Past the point of no returnâ¦The final threshold⦠I clicked it off. We rode in silence. I saw a dead coyote on the road. It looked like the vultures had already gotten to it.
âHow did I not know about that?â I croaked eventually, because I had to say something.
âI didnât tell anyone,â said Sophie. âItâs nobody elseâs business.â
âThatâsâ¦a great accomplishment,â I said. I was sweating. I could feel the synapses in my brain misfiring, yelling at each other to form coherent thoughts.
âThank you,â said Sophie.
âYou know, I read somewhere that Princeton doesnât typically accept two students from the same school,â I said. âEspecially if