had it here eight, ten years, I reckon. They ainât got nothinâ like it in New York. Nothinâ nowhere near like it.â
I knew that if I didnât check out those faucets pretty quick Paâd swarm all over me. âWere you just rehearsing?â
âJust jamming a little,â the cornetist replied. âHerbie said since the place was closed anyway, we could come over and jam.â He pointed his thumb at the piano player. âMe and him, we donât get to play together all that much.â
I didnât know what he meant by jamming, but I didnât want to look like a dope by asking. âHow could you learn to play like that?â
The piano player chuckled. âCanât learn it.â He put the cigar back in his mouth and shook his head. âThatâs a plain fact. You got to get a feelinâ for it.â
From down below there came a shout. âPaulie, what the hell are you doing up there?â
I leaned over the trapdoor. âI couldnât find the toilet.â
âWhat the hell? Itâs that door right at the end of the bar.â
It surprised me that he knew where it was: he hadnât come up out of that cellar the whole time we were here. âDo you play here all the time?â
The cornetist shook his head. âSometimes Iâm here. Nothing regular.â
The piano player chuckled. âJazz musicians donât play nowhere all the time.â
The cornetist pointed at the piano player again with his thumb. âHe got a nice gig over at the Arcadia Ballroom. Iâm here for now. No telling how long itâll last.â
âMaybe I could come over and hear you.â
The cornet player shrugged. âI doubt if theyâre going to want any kids in knee pants running around here. This is a pretty rough joint.â
âPaulie!â
âWhat time do you start?â
âItâs an after-hours joint. We donât start till midnight. Sometimes donât get out of here till the sunâs up.â
My heart sank. If only they started around eight or something, I might figure a way to hear them. But there wasnât a chance Ma would let me go anywhere at midnight. âDo you ever play during the day?â
âYeah, sure. Thereâs tea dances sometimes. You never know when oneâll come up.â
âCome on, Tommy. We done palavered long enough.â He rolled a series of chords up the keyboard.
âPaulie, get your tail down here.â I ran out of there to check the faucets, before Pa ate me alive. But it didnât matter, for finally Iâd come across something maybe I could discipline myself about. And I knew for sure that for me the plumbing business was a dead duck.
A FTER THAT I couldnât think of anything but the music those guys were playing. It kept going around and around in my brain. I could actually hear it. Of course I couldnât remember exactly everything they played, but I could hear the sound of it, the feeling that was in it, in my head.
But it wasnât good enough just to hear it in my brains. I wanted to hear it for real again. I never wanted anything so bad in my lifeânever wanted a fielderâs mitt or a bike or anything so bad as I wanted to hear that music again.
Naturally, I couldnât rest until I tried to play it myself. As soon as we got home that night I unpacked my cornet and tried to play jazz. I just couldnât do it. I didnât know where to begin. I sat there for a minute, holding my cornet in my lap, and thought about it. I remembered how there always seemed to be a song flickering around in what they were playingâa song that would pop out here and there and then disappear again. I figured the thing to do was to start with a song. I picked out âMaryland, My Maryland,â which I knew by heart. Nothing happened. I couldnât figure out how to put the jazz into it, and it came out plain old âMaryland, My