returned to lock with mine. âYou might want to hear what the favor is before you answer so quickly.â
âAnything, Ginger. Youâve done so much for me. Without you . . .â
âI want you to take my place.â
âTake your place?â What did that mean? How could I ever begin to take Ginger Belmontâs place? I didnât really have the disposition for teaching piano lessons to the neighborhood kids. Was I supposed to troll the town looking for unwed teen mothers? Could it be as simple as ladling out soup at the Jefferson Homeless Shelter every Tuesday? Or would it be defending the need to shelve Harry Potter books at the local Friends of the Library committee meeting?
âI want you to take my place at County Line.â
I felt the color drain from my face. Anything, anything but that. I owed my life to Ginger Belmont. But I didnât owe one damned thing to God, and I wasnât about to play piano for Him.
âGinger.â I fought back nausea.
âItâs my dying wish. Would you deny me my dying wish?â
âThatâs not fair, and you know it,â I croaked.
She squeezed my hand. Hard. âLifeâs not fair, sweetie, and, oh, how we both know it.â
âBut I canât stop playing at The Fountain. Bill needs me,â I said.
âI didnât say you had to stop playing at The Fountain.â
âWell, I canât play at The Fountain and at church!â
âWhy not?â
Ginger knew very well why not. Last nightâs stranger wasnât the only one who didnât approve of my song selections.
Her eyes shifted to the floor. âWell, you could always find a new song to sing.â
I crossed my arms and settled in for a fight. âBill renamed the place because of that song. Iâm not changing it now.â
âBeulah, you canât stay ticked off at God forever.â
I slammed my fists down on the table and stood. The metal legs of the table shrieked, but my voice came out low: âWatch me.â
Gingerâs penciled-in eyebrow arched to unnatural heights, telling me I needed to take it down a notch and have a seat. âBeulah Lou, you keep punishing yourself. Youââ
âHow am I punishing myself with your cancer? Can you tell me that?â
âRejoice when a person dies and . . .â Ginger paused, but forced herself to forge ahead. â. . . mourn when a child is born.â
Her words stabbed me at my most vulnerable spot. âI donât know how you can quote that religious bullshit to me,â I whispered.
âBecause itâs the truth,â she said grimly. âI know you donât see it that way, but itâs the truth. Now sit down and eat.â
âIâm not hungry.â
âSit down. And eat.â
I couldnât argue with her or her penciled-in eyebrow, so I picked up my fork. My stomach pitched at the thought of food. For a moment, I felt sixteen again, and I tried to brush it aside. That was a year I hated to remember, much less relive.
Even with only a kiss of syrup, the sweet, sweet toast gagged me. The bacon didnât look burnt, but it tasted like ashes.
I consoled myself with the idea that the preacher would probably fire me the minute he realized I was the woman from The Fountain. Then, Ginger wouldnât be able to blame me for not fulfilling her dying wish.
Gingerâs hand shook as she tried to meet her mouth with a piece of French toast. My smile faded. No amount of thumbing my nose at the new preacher would keep Ginger with me.
And no amount of her well-intentioned roadblocks would save me from the path Iâd started down years before.
Chapter 3
G inger wasted no time calling in her favor. The next morning she knocked on my door at eight, once again too early for someone who played piano in a honky-tonk to all hours. âBeulah Lou, get on up and take a shower. Weâve got a nine oâclock appointment with