said anâ this anâ that ⦠the Big Man was real impressive to some. Anâ heâs gone. Anâ his kidâs still here.
He stretches, grabs the overhead rail and tries to pull himself up. Stifles a scream and falls back. The contraption swings left right left right and stops. Itâs about the same width as the pipe that heâd brought down on Thugâs head.
Thereâs laughing, swearing, boozing, thereâs lounging round under trees. Thereâs frying meat. Theyâre all there, Pres, Carver anâ all. Anâ Thug, what belongs to Carver, thatâs black with yellow eyes. A slinking dog. Anâ now the laughing stops. Anâ Carverâs coming from one way anâ the Big Man from another ⦠We take off, the Big Man anâ me.
âI just wanted to knock him out, Dad. Heâs got this little dog by the throat anâ heâs shaking him anâ shaking him. I had to stop it. I didnât mean to kill him ⦠Dad?â
âI know.â
âHe says I poison everything I touch, Pres does. Anâ Carver â¦â
âFuck âem. Ya just a kid. Yer gotta take no notice of all that psychology crap.â
âI do, Dad. I do. Remember when I crashed Turkâs bike?â
âListen Kid, thatâs just an inconsequential measure of bad luck. Thereâs good luck anâ thereâs bad luck, thatâs how it is. Lifeâs not all bad, Kid, it donât work like that. Thereâll be real good bits here anâ there anâ youâll be around to see âem. Anâ then what ya do with âemâs ya own affair. If ya wanna be pissed off with yaself thatâs ya own affair too. But Iâm telling ya, Kid, when them joyous windows open â anâ they will â a personâd be pretty light in the head not to snap up whatâs on offer to feel real good âbout life. Anâ âbout themselves while theyâre at it. âWhen one door shuts, another opensâ. Yer remember that, Kid.â
Yeah, Dad. Anâ where was the one that opened when Mum anâ Carver anâ every fuckinâ bastard around slammed the other in ya face?
The young bikieâs sweating. He sticks to the sheets. Again he tries to move but stops. He can hear them coming. He knows their sound.
The six swagger in, loud in leather and gold clippings. Eyes from other beds slip into sheets, hands feel for buzzers.
The President sweeps back the curtain and sweat rises. The young bikie looks into pale eyes, china cold. A general knows instinctively how to instil fear, thatâs why heâs the general. Itâs in the silence, the steady gaze. A nuggetty, square-shaped general this, one that demands loyalty, admires intelligence. Sees it in the boy â¦
He breathes closer, the voice is soft, an intimate menace ⦠âJist to remind ya, Kid, thereâs rules made for a fuckinâ reason, anâ when someone breaks them rules we donât like it. Anâ when we donât like it weâre inclined to do something about it â¦â
âHeâs in real bad pain, Pres. Ya can tell ââ
âIâm speaking, Turk.â
âYa can tell ââ
âShut up!â
The curtain swishes open.
âAfternoon tea?â
A nurse bringing afternoon tea?
The curtain closes â¦
The leader moves closer, confidential like. âAnâ donât think âbout chucking it away neither. Ya fuckinâ fingerprints are all over it. Anâ we both know what weâre talkinâ âbout âcos Hambone jist happened to observe ya. Ya give it back, ya hear? Ya put it right in her fuckinâ hand â anâ hers only.â
The plastic wallâs flung back and the six stomp out.
The young bikie remains motionless, his eyes fixed on the ceiling, his breath raised in a silent howl. He opens his mouth and drives his teeth into his arm