nawwzeeating dreams, or give em blood in their pee and cum.
I pray ta Yog-Sothoth on High fer His wisdom. I hope He help me do it all right at the right time.
Best thing that happen today was I finally meet her, Sary. Was the fattest a the Hutchins boys trine to hurt her and fuck her aginst her will. Made her take his dog’s dick inner mouth an it made me so mad. Wanted to kill that boy butt thouht it best to bust up his nuts and give him pain like he never know. Kilt the dog, shot it. Remind me when I kild the Hutchins colly Jack back in 1916. Elam Hutchins promise ta kill me fer it but a while laytur I see him rimmin one of his wells so I walk up till I’m standin over 10 cubits off and he starts a-railin at me and shakin his fist so I jest smyle and recite one of the Ambulation Spells from p. 124 of Remigius Secret Chapter, and I red it in the Eltdown Langwidge, so it work extra good, just like Grandfather say. Elam fall right into that wellhole, he did. He still alive today but lives in one of them chairs with wheels. I no he wont do nuthing bout me nooterin his boy, for feer of what I’d do ta his hole family.
But Sary. She sleepin on my cot jess behind me, wearin my Mother’s black dress. I sit heer writing an keep lookin back at her laying so beautiful like that. Erlier while she be asleep I went out an bring back the dog carcass n feed it to that One inside. But before I come back in the toolhouse ta write this I got thinkin about Sary and got all hot till I cudn’t stand it any mor so I had to make my seed come out with my hand. Doin that a lot sincce that first time I see her at the pond. Cant help it.
Sary’s so beautiful. She all low feeling bout how her face look but I cant calclate what she meens. It’s ALL uv her that’s beautiful, even her voyce, even her name. She make all that’s round her beautiful jest by standing theer. Way I feel about her is sumpthin I never felt before, ever.
So far nothin bad happen. Thoght she wudn’t want to come back hear cuzza me but that didnt happen, then I think shee’d wanna leave right off on account of the powerful smell of that One’s drippings. I mention it—the smell, nott that One insyde—but—praise the name of Him Who Is Not To Be Named—Sary tell that becuz of a ailmint when she was a tot, she got no sense a smell at all! I know that Yog-Sothoth is blessin me.
Leest for today, I guess. Must stay humble an keeep wurthy. What I want more then anything is ta open the Gate proper for Yog-Sothoth, but the onlee thing I want below that is for Sary ta have good feelings about me. I’d give anything for her to feel about me what I feel thinkin bout her. I could do it with one of the spells in the Von Prinn but that woudn’t bee honest. She a good person in a whole range of bad folks. Would be false for me to MAKE her have a fancy for me cuzza a spell.
But when we’d got bak, I fed her, fixt her tore gown, then we talkt some which was nice. Got distrakted, though, bein’ so close ta her after pinin so long. She’s so nice, so wunderfull.
She’s still now. I jess look at her and smile.
Got that hot sence agin tingling below. I’ll hafta go out and beat off myself again. When I do it while thinkin about her, it feel so mutch better, and all I can ponder is what it ud feel like if SHE made it come out. Hard too even reckon it.
But thatll not happen. Got to be reelistik. Got past the smell part but theres still ME. I know I don’t look like NUTHIN like men hereabouts under my garments. If Sary ever wan ta do it with me, what ud she think lookin at my body with no clothes on? She’d likely run out skreemin.
In the name uv the Shining Trapezohedron! Everything bout Sary, not just her bodee but all of her, when I think of it, I get this stranje, warm, confoundin feelin in the place where I gess my hart is.
Pleese, Yog-Sothoth. Hear my prayer.
Four
Never before had Sary laid eyes upon this particular house, which was reasonable