possibly even thrown him out of the pack. Then when she’d first met William, with Tor, she’d wondered if she was going crazy, liking two men at once. Of course she’d soon learned it was possible to have two men. Once she’d seen how well Gaynor’s relationship with both Tor and Cameron had worked, she’d known that’s what she wanted for herself.
But how well did she really know them? She wasn’t exactly experienced in sexual relationships or even in deep male/female nonsexual relationships. And what if she found she didn’t like BDSM? Talking about it was likely very different from doing it.
What if Oliver and William couldn’t coexist harmoniously? There was no divorce in panther matings. If they weren’t happy they were still stuck with each other. Besides, her parents had been unhappy before her mother died. What if she ended up like her mother, suffering a lifetime of unhappiness and no possibility of mating with Mr. Right?
What if her father was engaged in doing something important to help her? If the watchers had missed the point, simply didn’t understand the facts? What if when he came back to explain everything to her she done something rash and it was all too late?
No. Much better to take no irrevocable steps right now.
But how could she protect herself? What if her father really was going to sell her to the rogue panthers?
How could she balance all these things? There had to be a way.
Leticia glanced at both men. William seemed very tense, his hands twisting on his lap, but he was still looking at her with hope shining over his face.
Oliver’s face was impassive, but the line on his forehead was deeper. Actually, there were two lines there now and his hands were in his pockets. Was that to stop him fidgeting with them like William?
Suddenly, the answer came to her.
“A long time ago people used to get handfasted. It was sort of halfway between being engaged and being married, or mated. The ceremony was performed, the vows said, the couple—or trio, I guess—moved in together and lived together, but there was a period of time when everything could be dissolved if one of the parties was unhappy. I will agree to that. A ceremony and a trial marriage or handfasting, but with the option to undo it all if any of us decides it doesn’t work. How about we have a three-month contract marriage? I think I’ll know if this is going to work after three months. If we are all happy the marriage stays. Otherwise we agree to dissolve it completely at the end of the three months’ trial period. What about you two?”
William stared at her. His mouth opened and closed again, then he gulped, but he didn’t say anything.
Oliver frowned. “You want the mating ceremony in front of the pack and the community, so it’s as if we were married. But the paperwork will state we can dissolve the marriage after three months unless all of us are content?” he asked.
“We may as well have the ceremony. Hopefully, we’ll all be happy and we’ll continue on as we are. But I’m not ready for an irrevocable decision. I need the freedom to leave if it’s not working. I’ve never lived with a sexual partner, far less two of them. I’ve never been involved in BDSM. For the past few months I’ve done nothing, communicated with almost no one, lived a very strange life. This is a major adjustment. I need to be free to change my mind if it’s not working.”
Leticia spoke firmly and looked both the men in the face. She meant this. It was a brilliant idea and gave her everything she needed—the men she loved and wanted, plus an escape clause if she needed it. Or if either of them did. She couldn’t bear the thought of them being locked into a relationship if one or more of them hated it.
“I agree,” said William, gently stroking her cheek with one finger.
“Very well.” Oliver nodded. He stood up and straightened his back, instantly looking very businesslike.
“I’ll have to explain all this to Omar.