remarked, growing more and more distracted. Watching Kaisa, I understood what Zgut had meant. Stretched out against the bed like she was, this dumpling looked pretty tempting. There was something about her, something strange and as yet unknown â¦
âWell, here you are,â the owner said. âSettle in, relax, do as you like. Skis, wax, equipmentâeverything you want can be found downstairs, and if you need anything feel free to contact me directly. Dinner is at six, but if you decide youâd like something to snack on or refresh yourself with right awayâI mean drinks, of courseâjust ask Kaisa. Welcome.â
And he left.
As Kaisa continued to work the bed to a level of unimaginable perfection, I took out a cigarette, lit it, and went over to the window. I was alone. At last, thank God in heaven and all his angels, I was alone! I know, I know: youâre not supposed to say this kind of thing, or even think itâbut how difficult it is in this day and age to get a week, or a day, or even just an hour alone! I mean, I love my children, my wife, I get along well with my family, and the majority of my friends and acquaintances are quite polite and pleasant. But to have them coming around one after the other, and thereâs no possibilityânot even the smallest oneâof getting out of it, detaching myself, disconnecting, locking myself away â¦Â Iâve never read this myself, but my son maintains that the greatest struggle man faces in the modern world is with solitude and alienation. I donât know. Iâm not so sure. Maybe all of this is just a romantic myth, or maybe Iâm just unlucky. Either way, for me two weeks of solitude and alienation sounds like exactly what I need. So long as the only things I have to do here arethings I want to do, not things I have to do. A cigarette, for example, which I smoke because I want to, not because someone shoved a pack under my nose. And which I donât smoke when I donât want to smoke itâbut only because I donât want to, not because Madame Zelts doesnât like the smell of tobacco smoke â¦Â A glass of brandy by a roaring fire: now thatâs all right in my book. That would definitely not be a disaster. Apparently things here wonât be that bad. Which is just wonderful. Iâm doing all right, alone with myself, with my body, which isnât too old yet, itâs still strong, I can still put on some skis and dash off, all the way across the valley, towards those purple spikes, over the whistling snow, and then everything will be absolutely perfect â¦
âCan I bring you anything?â Kaisa asked. âAnything you like?â
I looked at her, and once again she shrugged and covered her face with her hand. She was dressed in a closefitting, multicolored frock, which puffed out in the front and back, and a tiny lace apron. A necklace of large wooden beads hung around her neck. She tilted her feet slightly inward; she didnât look like any of the women I knew. This was also good.
âWhoâs here right now?â I asked.
âWhere?â
âHere. At the inn.â
âThe inn? Whoâs staying with us right now? Plenty of people â¦
âWho exactly?â
âWell, letâs see. Thereâs Mr. Moses and his wife. Theyâre in one and two. And threeâexcept theyâre not staying there. Or maybe itâs his daughter. Itâs hard to figure out. Sheâs a beauty, giving them all the look â¦â
âIs that so?â I said, egging her on.
âThen thereâs Mr. Simone. Heâs in the room across from yoursâa scientist. Heâs always playing billiards and crawling up the walls. A troublemaker, but dull. Mentally speaking, I mean.â She blushed and shrugged her shoulders again.
âWho else?â I asked.
âMr. Du Barnstoker, the hypnotist who performs in