Oklahoma, in the other and print out the directions. Queeg stands over me as I do this, watching but not saying a word. Iâm sorely tempted to download some porn just to annoy Minnie. Thatâs probably why heâs standing there.
He waits until Iâve grabbed the paper from the printer, and weâve gone back outside before he asks. âYouâre going to Gandy?â
âYup.â
âNow?â
Min He is standing a little distance away to make it seem as if sheâs giving us privacy, but I see her interest pick up when she hears us talking about me leaving.
âWhy not?â I reply.
âYouâre crazy.â
Heâs right, of course. I am crazy, but I need to take my crazy somewhere else. Camping out on Queegâs sofa is going to make all of us crazy.
âNah,â I reply. âJust irresponsible. Undependable. Erratic, even.â
Min He snorts at this, and Iâm pretty sure she mutters, âAnd stupid.â
âFirst you wonât answer their calls, and now youâre driving a thousand miles without knowing what they want?â
âEight hundred,â I tell him.
He points to my car. âYouâre driving eight hundred miles in that?â Now heâs getting mean.
âItâs an adventure.â
He raises an eyebrow. âYou complain about going to the grocery store.â
âI complain about the shopping part, not the driving part.â I am lying. I complain about both parts.
âBut itâs Sunday.â
âIâll crash at a cheap motel there tonight. That way I can be at the lawyerâs office first thing tomorrow to pick up my check.â
âThatâs not how it works,â he says. âThereâs going to be paperwork.â
I wave away his concerns with my hand. Iâve stopped listening.I understand that driving to Gandy today is a dumb idea, but Nick might well be on his way over here, and thatâs a confrontation Iâd like to avoid. Besides, itâs a cool, breezy morning, Iâm riding a glazed-doughnut sugar rush, and Iâm feeling a little loose and what-the-fuckish. Getting out of here sounds so good I canât stop myself.
âIâll be fine.â
âWhat about your job?â Queeg is saying. âDonât you have anything booked next week?â
I think about my almost empty calendar and how easy itâs been to watch my dead motherâs business die. I didnât kill it, or at least it wasnât premeditated. One day I just didnât bother to return a call about a booking, and when I realized how much I enjoyed not having to take those pictures, I ignored the next call, too. My phone doesnât ring all that often anymore.
âNope.â
He frowns. âYour mother stayed busy when she ran the studio.â
âIâm not my mother.â This is my stock answer for any comparison to her. Unfortunately, itâs not ringing as true as it once did.
Queeg sighs and then fumbles in his pocket, pulling out his wallet. I can see that there arenât many bills inside.
âStop. Iâve got money.â I donât mention that it isnât much and Iâll need to put it all in my gas tank.
He pulls out the bills and glances at them. âFifty-eight. Here.â
Heâs holding the cash out toward me, and Iâm shaking my head. âYou should go shopping with that money,â I say. âYou need a new cardigan. Youâre starting to look like some down-and-out Mr. Rogers.â I stick my finger through the largest of the holes in his threadbare sweater. âAnd stop smoking before you set yourself on fire.â
âDonât lecture me,â he says. âEither take this or Iâm going tothrow it away.â He points to the trash barrel and Min He frowns. Sheâs not going to let that money stay in the trash can.
I take the cash. âFine. Thank you. Iâll pay you back.â At