gloom settles over everything in the room. Vaniok listens to the distant sounds coming from the street, sounds of people who donât have to think about these kinds of things. How lucky they are. Jory, meanwhile, is caught up in his own thoughts. After a moment he pulls himself up. âBut I told you about my jar of soil,â he says, âand I havenât shown it to you. Here, come to the desk.â Vaniok, whoâd actually forgotten about it, follows Jory across the room. He slowly opens one of the drawers and extracts a glass jar like the kind used to hold preserves back home. Vaniok can see the dark earth inside; the earlier excitement returns. Jory brings the jar to Vaniok and slowly undoes the lid. When he pulls it away, the sharp smell of the homelandâs soil rushes from its container and Vaniokâs eyes sting.
âPut your hand into the jar,â Jory urges softly and Vaniok does so. The yielding earth is surprisingly cool, Vaniokâs fingers disappear in the blackness. For long seconds neither of the men speaks. Oddly, no sounds from the outside penetrate the walls of the room. At last Vaniok withdraws his hand, carefully brushing the last grains of soil back into the jar. The silence lengthens, Vaniok waits while Jory closes the cover and turns to put away his container of earth. But even as he does so Jory stops, frozen for a moment, as if heâs forgotten what he set out to do. Bent over the jar, his back to Vaniok, he asks, âWill we ever go back there?â The words are barely audible, itâs not clear whom heâs talking to and Vaniok is surprised by the despair he hears in this voice that until now has been so insistent on their return. In the angle of Joryâs back Vaniok senses the manâs vulnerability and heâs suddenly embarrassed, as if heâs glimpsed some secret Jory hasnât wanted him to seeâitâs as though in this instant heâs looking at the real Jory. The hair on Vaniokâs arms bristles.
In a moment, though, the other man has put away the jar, closed the drawer of the desk, and heâs facing Vaniok again, apparently his old self once more. âAnother drink, maybe?â he asks.
Vaniok shakes his head. âI really have to be going now,â he says. âBut thanks for inviting me. Thanks for the drinks. I know youâll like it here.â
Jory walks him to the door. Heâs not as cheerful as he was earlier but his cordiality seems genuine. âThank you for coming,â he says. When he closes the door Vaniok makes his way quickly down the stairs and is glad when heâs finally outside.
âJory is very quiet, very reserved,â Ila says. âA man of mystery.â Vaniok and she are having coffee at an outdoor restaurant and he watches the students passing by. They wear shorts and light shirts in the unseasonably mild weather, and walk with loose limbs, smiles on their faces as if they expect to meet only people who like them. Vaniok tries to imagine heâs one of these students, bright futures dancing in his head, visions of parties on the beach where people who will be your friends for life gather around the fire and sing.
âHeâs like the farmer in the sea shell,â Ila says. The two of them are speaking in the old language.
Vaniok is brought back to the present. He remembers: Ila has been talking about Jory, whoâs been here little more than a week. âFarmer?â Vaniok asks. âWhat farmer?â
âIn the story, silly. The farmer in the sea shell.â
âAh, that one.â His grandmother used to tell him the folktale about the young man whoâd gone looking for the ocean in a sea shell and had lost himself in its cavernous whorls.
âI can imagine many women might think theyâre the maiden whose whisper calls him out.â
Vaniok laughs. âHe goes around like a man with indigestion.â
She laughs too but only to be