youâd been marked, not until they flash you with an infrared gun and your hand lights up like itâs Christmas. Sticks to your skin for a week â fuck knows what chemicals have ate into you in the meantime. No washing it off neither. Thatâs why weâre wearing gloves in this fucking heat.â
âWhat happens if somebody touches it by mistake?â
âNo chance of that. Weâre gonna glass it in and then embed the post in concrete â the lawn is history. And after that weâll fence the lot in.â
âThatâs overkill, isnât it?â
âYou think so? Itâs the badlands around here, and from what weâve heard itâs only going to get badder.â He grimaced. âNow, if you donât mind, we have to get on.â
She left them to it, walking along the High Street until she turned off to go down the market. There the ice was melting almost as fast as the fishmongers could lay it down, so that water was dripping off the trays onto the pavement and into the gutters, flavouring the air with the stink of fish. Careful to hold her skirt up, she stepped onto the pavement and kept going, passing a pound shop, one of three along the parade. She stopped by a display of plastic boxes of various sizes, and mops and brooms that had spilt out onto the pavement and almost into the road.
âJayden?â
Jayden, who had been picking up the fallen brooms, looked up. A taciturn boy, he nodded to her.
âYou were out early this morning.â
He shrugged and said something that sounded like âI dunno.â
âNot at school?â
He shook his head and didnât speak, but whether this was because he was truanting and didnât want to say so, or because he couldnât summon up the energy for an explanation, she couldnât tell.
âCome and have some cake with us after your tea.â
âOkay,â he said. And gave a little smile. Which she knew was the best she was going to get out of him.
She moved on only to stop again at the last shop in the run. It wasnât her favourite, but it was the cheapest. She reached over the display of peppers and okra and tomatoes to the plantain at the back. She had just picked up a piece when a voice sounded in her ear: âThat plantainâs tired.â
She looked up and straight into the sun, so that all she first saw against the dazzle was a dark shape. She took a step back, blinked and her vision cleared: âBanji. You scared me.â
He smiled and his eyes crinkled. Which sheâd always liked. She smiled back.
He took the plantain sheâd been reaching for, turning it over to expose a bruised underside. âIf you have to shop here, youâve got to shop clever.â He put the piece back and picked through the pile. âThis oneâs fresher.â
As she took it from him, his other hand touched and held hers.
âYouâre so cool,â she said.
âI was born cool.â He smiled again.
They stood for a moment not speaking, and she thought how mismatched they â a stout white woman and a tall black man, standing close â must look, and then she thought that she should take back her hand.
She didnât want to.
âHow was Lindi this morning?â he said.
âDisappointed you werenât there. And stroppy as hell.â
âCanât imagine where she gets that from.â Another smile as he increased his pressure on her hand.
She looked down at his long brown fingers with their broad square-cut nails and the back of his hand with its raised veins. She saw her own hand in his, plump and white, as he continued, gently, to squeeze it.
It was fifteen years since heâd left, and his going had been so brutal and so final sheâd neither expected to see him again nor hoped that she might. But now she found herself in the grip of some of the feelings she had thought long gone. Heâs playing me, she told herself. And