When I looked up, I saw a whole bunch of kids I didnât recognize. They looked like they were about my age, but they must have been from a different elementary school.
And after all the commotion of Liam leaving and me crying and itching and freaking out, they were staring at me like I was nuts.
I gulped and wrapped myself in a hug, like I was a little animal trying to protect myself from predators. Kids from my school knew they werenât allowed to call me bad names, but kids from other schools didnât know me and didnât know the rules. Whenever Iâd see people I didnât know out at the mall, the library, the pool, wherever, Iâd have someone with me. A friend. Mom. Dad. Someone. And theyâd give the strangers scary looks, and theyâd cover my ears if it looked like someone was going to say something bad.
But this time I was alone.
âWhatâs wrong with your arms and legs?â some kid with spiky hair and glasses asked. I was already crying a little bit, but that was enough to push me over the edge. My arms flailed away from my body as I cried and cried and cried.
âWhatâd you do to that freak, Felix?â A girl came up to the boy.
FREAK formed on my kneecap right before their eyes.
âHoly meatballs!â yelled Felix. âWhat are you, some kind of a witch?â
âWitch!â the girl repeated, laughing.
WITCH was itchy. So, so itchy. I was an itchy, itchy witchy.
The rest of their friends approached. Before they could say anything, I scrambled away as quickly as I could.
As I ran home that day, tears streaming down my cheeks and words itching the bejeebers out of my body, I realized: maybe Mom, Dad, Jeg, and Liam were the only people who thought CAV was cool. And now Liam didnât think it was cool, and Jeg wasnât around as much, so maybe she didnât, and Mom and Dad ⦠Well, parents had to tell you that you were cool, even if you werenât. Everybody knew that.
If this was a sign of what people really thought when they werenât being threatened by my parents or friends or teachers, then, well, maybe CAV wasnât the cool kind of weird after all. Maybe it was the weird kind of weird, plain and simple.
So I decided, right then and there on that sticky almost-summer day, that I could never wear shorts or T-shirts ever again. And, throughout the summer, I had stuck to my promise. Even if I was hot all the time.
Hot was better than itchy.
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ITâS ON
âElyse, we gotta go!â
I took one last look at the gum and decided Iâd throw it out later. Then I hurried downstairs and joined Mom and Dad in the car.
âThis class trip is going to be so great for you, sweetie,â Mom said as she put on her seat belt. âI know itâs months away, but I made some lists. Things you have, things you need, things you donât have that you might need, types of anti-itch cream that are best for cold weatherâ¦â
I groaned. Prescription anti-itch cream was the only thing that made my bad CAV words feel better, but the stuff was seriously nasty. Not only was it thick and gooey, but it also smelled like milk somebody shouldâve thrown away weeks ago.
Mom passed a notebook back to me, and I held it up in front of the window and pretended to read her lists. Really, though, I just wanted to look out the window.
âDonât worry about all this stuff, Elyse,â Dad said. âYouâll be fine. Itâll be good. Everythingâs good.â
Mom rubbed his shoulder for a second, and then turned back to look at me. âOf course everything is good. Well, thatâs what weâre aiming for. But we have to be prepared. Sometimes things donât go how we want them to. I have lotion for tonight in my purse, just in case things get itchy in there. Okay?â
I stared back out the window, pretending I hadnât heard her. Maybe if I didnât think about the possibility