entrance. Itâs comfortable and gives me a good view of both the mine and the forested trail Zhang Jing and I took earlier. Near the trail, I notice a cluster of pink-veined white mountain orchids that are finally blooming. Theyâre cup-shaped and make a pretty spot of color among the mostly green and brown foliage surrounding the trail. Flowers rarely bloom up here, and I pass much of my day studying and memorizing the orchids, going over ways Iâd depict them if only given the luxury to do so. Sometimes I dream up even more fantastical visions to paint, like fields and fields of orchids stretching out into a carpet of pink.
A blur of movement near the mineâs entrance draws my attention back to the real world. For a moment, I wonder if Iâve truly lost track of time and if the miners are coming out for lunch. Thatâs when my assignment is busiest. But noâitâs not quite midday yet, and only two men emerge from the entrance, one young and one old. Neither of them notices me, sitting out of the way on my stump.
One of them is Li Wei, and Iâm astonished to encounter him twice in one day. Our lives have taken such different directions that I rarely see him anymore. The older man with him is his father, Bao. He shows the signs of having worked in the mine his entire life: a strength of body and character thatâs let him survive all these years but thatâs also taken its toll. He doesnât stand as straight as he once did, and thereâs an exhaustion in him thatâs almost palpable, despite the resolute look in his dark eyes.
Studying the two together, I can see how Li Wei serves as a reminder of what Bao must have looked like in his youth. Li Wei still shows all the strength and none of the wear. His black hair is pulled into the same neat topknot the other miners have, though a few strands have escaped and now cling to his face, which is damp with perspiration. Fine gold dust from the mine glitters across his skin and clothing, almost as it did on that day long ago in my childhood. The light plays over him now, and I feel an ache in my chest.
Bao turns his head, revealing an oozing red gash on his forehead. Once Li Wei has made sure his father can stand, he begins cleaning the wound with some supplies he removes from a small cloth bag. Li Weiâs hands are quick and efficient, a contrast to his towering strength and size. But his touch is delicate as he helps his father, and soon the older manâs head injury is clean and bandaged.
You canât let this keep happening
, Li Wei tells him when heâs finished.
You couldâve been killed.
I wasnât
, Bao signs back obstinately.
Everythingâs fine.
Li Wei points to his fatherâs forehead.
Everythingâs
not
fine!If I hadnât intervened at the last minute, this wouldâve been a lot worse. You canât work in the mines anymore.
Bao remains defiant.
I can and I will! I see well enough to do my work. Thatâs all that matters.
Itâs not just about your work
. Li Wei looks as though heâs trying very hard to remain calm, but thereâs an obvious panic behind his eyes.
Itâs not even just about your life. Itâs about the lives of others. You endanger them by staying down there. Let go of your pride and retire.
Pride is the only thing I have left
, says Bao.
Itâs the only thing any of us have. Theyâre taking everything else away from us. You heard the news about the food. With rations decreased, they need me more than ever down there. Thatâs where Iâll beâdoing my duty. Not sitting around the villageâs center with the other beggars. It is not your place to dictate your fatherâs actions, boy.
Li Wei gives a reluctant bow, but itâs clear that itâs out of respect, not agreement. With that, Bao turns around and returns to the mine, leaving his son staring.
I hold my breath. Their conversation could have been a mirror to