Running Back To Him Read Online Free

it’s flimsy or phony, I belonged. I finally belonged.” I point to my heart. “I finally had an identity. I was somebody.” I pause and look up at the ceiling; flashbacks of being VIP at keg parties at Ashley’s parent’s house on the lake give me a rush. “I don’t want go back to what I…was.” She places her hand on top of mine and strokes it lightly.
    Justine clears her throat to break up the lather of tension that’s present.
    “As your best friend for over ten years I can say that’s the most shallow thing I’ve ever heard.” She snickers. “ And as your bff I know exactly how to help you.”
    Her face curls with a mischievous smile. It’s kind of frightening how well she wears it.
    “You need a rebound,” she says. “They say the best way to get over a boy is to get under a new one.”
    “I’m not jumping right into another relationship,” I say. “My heart can’t take another.”
    “I’m not talking about a relationship. Just a fling. A hookup. A jumpoff. A—”
    “I get it,” I say contesting, pressing my palms out towards her.
    “So, the most popular guy in school dumped you. Just get with the other popular boy in school.” The bell rings and after a collective moan, students slither out of the cafeteria.
    “You’re out of your natural mind.”
    She stands up and dumps the contents of her tray into the garbage while I stay planted into my seat. I wait for the herd of students to leave; I can’t bear to walk the halls full of stares and hisses.
    “Hear me out,” she says kissing me on the cheek. “A no holds barred, no strings attached hookup will get your name out of the dumps and ringing bells in no time.”
    My mind starts to churn. I didn’t know if I had the mental or emotional capacity to endure something like that. But the more I thought about it, the idea sounded more enticing.
    “You don’t know the power you have right now. See, you think you’re down in the dumps.”
    “Think? No, I am . I’m in the bowels of the social scene.”
    “Oh, you mean like where I am?” she asks with a pointed look.
    “I didn’t mean it like that.”
    “Don’t worry, the water’s fine down in these parts. And you get used to the putrid smell after awhile. Anyways…you still have status. You still could get any guy you want in this school right now.”
    “But what would that solve?”
    Her head flinches back slightly. “Hanging out with those…hellions must have lowered your IQ by at least a trillion points.” I roll my eyes at her. “Hooking up with any old guy isn’t going to get you out of the pickle you’re in. You need to hook up with somebody of stature. Somebody that would make total sense. Somebody that would make Ashley and Lucas so jealous it would make their pea brains burst open.” She sits on top of the table right next to me, clasps her hands, and bites down on her bottom lip.
    Tilting my head, I say “you’re really getting into this aren’t you?”
    She nods her head ferociously. “I totally am,” she says. “And I have the perfect mark.” Her eyebrows are doing the happy dance.
    “So spill it!”
    “Who’s the one person who’s popular and just suffered a similar fate like you did?”
    The gears in my brain churn. Though Ashley and the rest of the clique thrived on gossip, I always feigned interest. “Someone who’s used to having a million eyeballs on him.” A light bulb bursts in my brain and my hands suddenly become pallid. A flush of cold fear prickles my skin.
    “Nooooo,” I utter, my voice a combo of terror and defeat. My face contorts from a wince to a look of pure trepidation like I’m about to witness a puppy darting out into heavy traffic.
    “Yessss,” she says, her mouth curling into a wicked smile like the Grinch Who Stole Christmas.
    I hang my head low and shake my head realizing how perfect her plan is but also realizing how uncomfortable things would be.
    She turns and looks over her shoulder and sees Kellen Murdock