do. My life was my marriage and everything that came with it. Take that away and what was left? Iâd given up so much when I married Daniel Remington. If I wasnât Avery Remington, who the hell was I?
So I called Daisy back and asked her that very question.
âWhat am I going to do?â I asked. âIs hiring a hit man off the table?â
She sighed. âBless your heart, but yes, itâs way off the table. As much as I want to inflict pain upon Daniel, I donât know that itâs the wisest move right now.â
âThen I repeat. What am I going to do?â I whispered, blotting my eye with a tissue from my purse. âI met with a divorce lawyer, Daisy, a fucking divorce lawyer! What is happening?â
âDo you want to divorce him?â
âWhat?â
âDo you want to divorce him?â
I sat there in my car, unable to answer the question. âI mean, I kind of have to, right?â I asked.
âYou donât have to do anything, Avery. Iâm certainly not going to tell you whether you have to do anything you donât really want to do.â
Even though she couldnât see me, I nodded.
âSo Iâll ask you again, kiddo, do you want to divorce him?â she asked quietly.
She couldnât see me, but I was still nodding. And then in the tiniest of whispers, I answered . . . âYes.â I took a breath, then said it again, stronger this time. âYes.â
âOkay then,â she answered.
I saw Bitsy leaving the front door, and I scrunched down so she couldnât see me. âBut I canât be here knowing that everyoneâs talking. I donât want the sad looks or the poor Avery that will come with it.â
âCome here,â she said, no trace of jest in her voice. âDonât think. Just come here.â
There was running away from my problems, and then there was running away.
âMaybe a week or two would do me some good,â I admitted, thinking about what I would miss if I just picked up and left thecountry. I peeked over the steering wheel to see Bitsy getting into her own penis gift. The lawyer could wait a bit. Itâs not like Daniel was going to file. His balls were in my court after all.
âA week or two is nothing. Listen, itâs the beginning of June and I have a spare room. And plus, Iâm barely ever home anyway. Youâd have the place to yourself. I know youâd love this city, and the weather is to die for! Think about it. You could eat great food, see beautiful buildings, visit museums. You could sketch.â From across the ocean, on another continent, I could hear my friendâs excitement. âCome and spend the summer with me.â
âA summer in Rome?â
âWasnât that a movie?â
âI donât think so, butââ
âStop stalling. No buts. No overthinking, no stressing. Just do it. Go home, pack your things, and Iâll call you back with flight info. Iâll see what I can get that leaves ASAP so you donât chicken out on me.â
She hung up and I stared into the visor mirror. Touching the pearls at my neck, I frowned, not recognizing myself. Yes, I was put together, and yes, I looked the part, but I wasnât happy. Thinking about it, I couldnât remember the last time I was.
Nodding once in silent affirmation, I slammed the car into drive.
I was heading off to spend my second summer abroad.
R OME IS A BEAUTIFUL CITY. Iâm pretty sure. I hoped one day to see it. Because right now, all I could see of it were the cobblestones below my feet, and the occasional look up to check a sign or a house number. Then back to the cobblestones, which appeared uneven because:
1. They likely were uneven.
2. Navigating cobblestones while wearing one stupidly high shoe and one recently lowered shoe was unwise at best.
Why did I wear heels on the plane? Ah yes, because I wanted to appear composed,