repeat the seventh grade if I donât.â
âShe doesnât really hate you. You know that, donât you?â
If she did, it would be no less than Annie deserved. For most of her daughterâs life, their home hadnât been the safe haven every child deserves but a place of prolonged tension and then sharp, sudden outbursts of temper. Why shouldnât Leah hate her for the choices sheâd made?
The hell of it was, if she had it all to do over again, she would probably make the same choices.
She glanced up to find Joe studying her, expecting an answer. Since she couldnât very well tell him her thoughts, she just nodded. âI know she doesnât hate me,â she said, without conviction.
He looked like he wanted to pursue it, but to her relief, he changed the subject. âHave you told the kids about my new job?â
The new job. The reminder sent fresh pain slithering to the base of her skull.
She shook her head, wincing a little at the movement, while she pulled out a fragrant loaf of garlic bread from the oven. âYouâre the one leaving. Youâre the one who can break the news.â
He frowned at her shortness. âAnnieââ
âThis is almost ready. Whereâs the rest of the crew?â She cut him off, not wanting to hear more apologies or explanations.
A muscle flexed in his jaw but he let the matter rest. âPatch was just about finished in the barn and I think Ruben and Manny are right behind me.â
âWhat about Luke?â
âI think he went back to the trailer to get gussied up for you. Said something about putting on a clean shirt.â
She looked up from stirring the spaghetti sauce, just in time to catch his rare grin. She gazed at it, at him.
The smile softened the harsh lines of his features, etching lines along the edges of his mouth and the corners of his eyes. He was beautiful, in a raw, elemental way with those glittering black eyes fringed by long, thick eyelashes, that sensual mouth and that coppery skin from his Shoshone heritage stretched over high cheekbones.
She blinked, suddenly breathless. âDonât tease him, Joe. He gets enough from the rest of the men.â
âHe wouldnât if the kid didnât make it so easy for us. He follows you around like heâs a puppy dog and youâre a big olâ juicy bone he wants to sink his teeth into.â
âHe does not.â She felt her face flush from more than just the heat rising off the pans on the stove.
She was very much afraid Joe was right, that their newest ranch hand made it painfully obvious to everyone he had a crush on her. She had done her best to discourage him but he seemed oblivious to all her gentle hints. If it was causing problems between him and the rest of the help, she was going to have to be more stern.
âDoes so.â Joe flashed another of those rare grins. âWe practically have to lift the boyâs tongue off the floor every time he looks at you.â
She managedâbarelyâto lift her own tongue off the floor and yanked her gaze away from that smile she suddenly realized she would miss so desperately.
She stirred the spaghetti sauce with vigorous motions. âHeâs just a little overenthusiastic. Heâll get over it. Besides, donât you remember what it was like to be twenty-two?â
As soon as the words escaped her mouth, she wanted to grab them and stuff them back. The year he had turned twenty-two, she had been eighteen, and she had given him her love and her innocence on a sun-warmed stretch of meadow grass on the shores of Butterfly Lake.
Now, after her hastily spoken words, he was silent for one beat too long and she finally risked a look at him over the steam curling up from the bubbling pasta. That muscle worked in his jaw again and his dark eyes held a distant, unreadable expression.
âI do,â he said softly. âEvery minute of it.â
Her breath