Poison Pen Letters to Myself Read Online Free

That person no longer exists. Nothere, not there, not anywhere. You too will hastily inscribe ‘Addressee Unknown’ and you too will go about your busy life, without more than passing thought of what once was.

Dedication
    Born as Romany Rivers
    Now I am,
    And I feel there is no light in my life
    But that which was there in the beginning
    And will be there at the end
    The Goddess guides us all
    To walk her path
    And this day I felt that I have long ago
    Placed my feet upon her path
    And yet have only walked it in my dreams
    I have pledged myself to thee
    Mother of all, and to you the Hunter,
    The consort of love and laughter
    And safe in this knowledge of re-awakening –
    I am born all over again.

Universal Self
    I have so much to achieve
    For you, for them, for me
    I feel old, young and ageless
    But time keeps me running out
    I move faster than the speed of light
    So that I can be there and here
    All at the same time
    I think there must be more than one of me
    I catch myself all the time
    Looking the same but different somehow
    And I surprise myself
    Maybe that is why you all look so surprised
    When occasionally
    I am not to be found anywhere

Dear John
    There was a man once
    Who held me in his arms
    Who touched me deep inside
    Who smothered me in his insecurities
    I held him in my heart
    I felt him in my mind
    I took him into me
    Without him knowing
    Who I was
    Who I am
    Who I will be
    He made me feel at home
    He made me want to run away
    I stayed bound to his smile
    Tied into his unnecessary jealousies
    He felt without reason
    Pulled me close without seeing
    Touched without believing
    I felt with intention
    Pulled him close with understanding
    Touched him with analysis
    Knowing that
    Every minute I embraced
    His strangeness
    His freshness
    His anger
    His laughter
    I was creating a memory
    That would ease my loneliness
    In times to come

Fat Happy Pre-packaged Dreams
    The paper bag danced with the breeze
    Teasing taunting titillating
    I heard someone say a curse for the mess of today
    I left it to dance for minutes
    Before I put it away
    To rot within our mothers belly
    A waste product of a mentality
    Born when we stopped feeling hungry

I Pray
    I walk the woodland paths
    And know
    I’ll never be alone
    I hear the whispering leaves
    The subtle way they call me home
    I feel the touch of earth
    The ways its roots, they pull me in
    Connects the universe
    Forever in eternal spin
    I pray that Mother Earth will turn each day
    I hear the storm arrive
    The whistling wind, it whips on by
    It makes me feel alive
    It gives me wings
    It makes me fly
    I hear the whispered words
    Rushing past upon the breeze
    A sense of wisdom heard
    That lifts me up and sets me free
    I pray the winds, they will forever change
    And I will not take for granted
    That which is there for me
    No, I will not take for granted….

Scrying
    Look into the blackened glass
    See the images of time gone past
    Watch the sorrow, feel the pain
    Hear the laughter amidst the rain
    From this past we must learn
    For it relives now as the wheel turns
    What was once will be again
    Time gone the time has come
    We must accept all our fears
    What was done will not be undone
    Our future is held loosely
    By the hands of our young
    They cannot see beyond our words
    Tales of life woven and spun
    I can see images of the future
    Within the darkness before me
    But they appear older than the lives
    Of those that spawned me
    What have we done?
    What will we do?
    The images fade without answers
    It is up to me and you.

Destiny
    The cards slip through my hands
    I drift into the world of unreality
    Of possibilities
    Probabilities
    But never inevitabilities

Sleep Deep
    We welcome you and say farewell little one,
    All within the same breath
    We hold you in our hearts dear one,
    Sense the presence you have left
    For your journey with us was swift and brief
    But your influence as long as memories
    We hold each other within our grief
    But understand it was not to be
    No sounds of footsteps