been reporting on educational statistics. The replay reveals a static city scene glimmering in the distance. In the foreground, palm fronds wave in the sunny late afternoon. Wind ruffles the reporterâs hair.
Without warning, the screen rips apart. For a second the flash of an explosion consumes everything, and I canât turn away or close my eyes. The reporter crouches, covering his ears, and for a second drops the microphone. The footage shimmers as if an earthquake is upending everything.
I squeeze my eyes shut. The red and white streamers from the fireworks reflect against the back of my eyelids. The sound of the explosion rockets through my eardrums. The scene on television reminds me of last night on the beach, the way the silhouettes made everyone look like soldiers. I was afraid, afraid for Dad and everyone in the unit. It was just a moment, a flash, and then I tried to brush it away like sand off my legs.
On television, smoke and dust are all I can see.
The anchor cuts away. âWeâll be back with more on this unfolding story.â
The scene changes to a cat food commercial.
The phone rings, and I snatch it off the receiver.
âMeriwether?â
âItâs Sam.â
âI tried to call you,â I say. âMy momâs still asleep. Whatâs happening?â He has to know something, or he wouldnât call. He wonât let what he thinks about Operation Oleander stop him from doing the right thing. From telling me what he can.
âThe major offensive. Itâs started. Troops are moving south.â Samâs voice sounds like a television reporterâs. Neutral and practiced. âA car bombing got part of the unit before they could join the convoy. Theyâd stopped at an orphanage.â
Orphanage.
The word reverberates in my head.
âOurs?â
For a moment he doesnât answer.
âYes.â His voice drops as if heâs telling me something he shouldnât.
âCasualties?â
âYes.â We talk as if in Morse code: clipped, in as few words as possible.
âSoldiers, too?â
âYes.â
âWho?â
Again Sam is silent. The emptiness inside the receiver deafens me.
I close my eyes. He knows. He has to know. His dad is Commander Butler. Heâd get word here first. Even though heâs here now, not in Afghanistan, heâll know, since the soldiers are from Fort Spencer.
Opening my eyes, I check the muted television screen again. Smoke curls toward the late-afternoon sky. People behind the announcer run back and forth on streets crowded with honking cars jammed at all angles like Caraâs toy trucks. A man dodges through the chaos, a child limp in his arms.
âSam. Tell me. Who?â Was that why he came to the PX? Because he knew then but he couldnât tell me? And he still canât tell me?
âI donât know.â He evades me like Cara does when sheâs taken one of my gel pens without asking.
âYou do know. Whoâs injured? Tell me.â I canât ask if anyoneâs dead. I canât get those words out. I wonât think them.
âIâd better go.â
âIs it my dad?â I rush to get the words in before he hangs up.
âIâm not sure. I wasnât supposed to hear anything. I was standing outside the living room when the colonel came to talk to my dad. Dad barely had time to get dressed, and then he ran out.â
âYou donât know about my dad? Really?â
âI donât.â
âWhat about our orphanage?â
âWhat do you mean, âoursâ?â
âYes, ours,â I say. We sent pencils and paper. Contributed toward food. âEven you.â
âI helped. I got us the space, didnât I?â he asks, his voice rising.
He did.
âYes, but you havenât been around much,â I tell him. Not ever since Mrs. Johnson complained that the operation is unsupportive of our troops and we