On Becoming His Read Online Free

fully commit. Unfortunately, I’m not certain of your level of commitment.”
    Luke could see right through her and always had been able to. The man had an electrified connection straight into her brain. “Yes, sir. You’re right. I’m just not sure what to say.”
    “Anything and everything. I simply want to know your thoughts, your concerns. And if you want to add in something about how you feel about me, even better.”
    “Tease.”
    “You bet. I’ll be home on Saturday and I expect to hear your final answer. If I think you’re wavering at all, I’m going to know. And I won’t go any further.”
    Jessie shook her head. She knew exactly what he was saying. “You’re right. Of course. I’ll be ready. I miss you.”
    “I miss you.”
    “I love you.” The words blurted out, every part o f her body froze as chills raced through her system. Dear God, she hadn’t anticipated saying the words. They’d skirted around them for a full month, but to blurt them out now and…would he go crazy? Would he race away? Would he… Cringing, she closed her eyes.
    “Kitty kat , I love you too.”
    Releasing an audible sigh, she clenched her fist and grinned. “Safe trip back.”
    “Don’t worry. I have a special lady to come back to.”
    As she hung up the phone she exhaled slowly. “Wow.” Jessie shook her head and eyed the journal on her coffee table. Why was Luke always right? Then again, what the hell was she supposed to write? She’d toyed around with the idea of penning some poems, not only for Luke but also for herself. While she was no artist or poet, so many thoughts raced through her mind she had to do something to release them. Without a doubt she wanted to please him. She wanted to have him smile because of her accomplishments. She longed to have him in her arms in a manner she hadn’t been able to enjoy with other men. Swallowing hard, she brushed her hand through her hair and nodded over and over again.
    Nights spent dreaming. Days spent longing. They were going to have some additional “serious discussions”, as he called them , and he wanted her to tell him why and how and when and… Could she do it? Glancing at her watch she smiled before heading to the couch. Today was Wednesday and he was coming over on Saturday night after returning. This trip had been far too long in her opinion and she half suspected he had gone away to give her space and time to think. And prepare. The talk was going to be the most frank they’d had in their time together and maybe sign their respective contracts, entering into something more formal. The concept of a binding contract was interesting and she was prepared. Wasn’t she? “Hell.”
    The thought daunting, she sat down and fingered the journal. The title page she’d started almost two weeks before and the page was blank. On Becoming His. The title was perfect for him , her journey and the situation. Sadly, she hadn’t written a damn thing in the entire time other than the title, in blazing red ink no less. Jessie rubbed her eyes and smiled as she remembered their heated dance and the way he looked at her the very first time he’d met her that night at the bar.
    Oh yeah the man was hot and she’d been horny and he’d refused to go to bed with her. Chuckling, she had never been so brazen with a man until that night and for some reason she wanted him. Luke. Now she had him , or so she hoped. Old fears crept in as she leaned back against the couch and sipped her wine. You can do this. You can tell him exactly why you want him to own you. The pep talk did little good but as she set her glass down and dropped her head, a thought came to her.
    Picking up the pen, she twirled the metal in her fingers as she grinned. Suddenly she knew exactly how the start her journey into becoming, into belonging to the man of her dreams.

 
     
    AS IF I BELONGED TO YOU
     
     
    I sense your presence, your hunger growing
    You have willed me to this place
    A dark haven on hallowed