the time flashed into Secretâs head. Secret had cried out to God and prayed that her baby be spared of the generational curse. She didnât want her baby to have to live the same life she had lived. To suffer some of the things sheâd suffered in her lifetime. She didnât want her baby to have to live in the streets of Flint, Michigan, raised by those streets that had their own twisted way of nurturing kids. Her baby could not live that way.
A wave of heat followed by a freezing chill flushed through Secretâs body. Had God actually answered her prayers in a way sheâd never meant for them to be answered? Since she didnât want her baby to have to live this way or that, had God decided to take care of that by not allowing her baby to live at all?
âAhhhhh!â The cry of agony at the mere thought of her baby left dead back in the delivery room in the arms of a stranger, a nurse, had no problem escaping Secretâs throat.
âItâs okay, baby,â the comforting nurse consoled Secret again. âWeâre almost there.â
The elevator doors closed. The whirlwind of a ride Secret was on was becoming harder and harder to withstand. Dizzy. Faint. She just wanted to close her eyes and let her body rest. But she couldnât rest, not until she knew the state of her baby. Then after that, Godâs will be done as far as her life was concerned.
âHey, I know her.â A team of nurses had been waiting at the elevator bank for the arrival of Secret. Apparently one had recognized Secretâs face.
The nurses on the second floor immediately took over and relieved the nurse from the ER. The nurse who had been consoling Secret relayed Secretâs situation for their own confirmation to the nurses. She then watched Secret be wheeled away, getting back on the elevator along with the assistants, returning to their assigned units.
âWhatâs happening?â Secret moaned.
âYes, honey, what did you say?â One of the nurses leaned down, placing her ear as close to Secretâs mouth as she could while at the same time keeping up with the moving bed.
Secret couldnât repeat her words. It had taken more strength than sheâd had to get them out the first time. She just shook her head as tears seeped out of the corners of her eyes, creating wet spots on the sheet beneath her.
The nurse stood after a few seconds of Secret not responding. She looked down at her and saw the tears. âDonât worry, Liâl Muffin, itâs going to be all right. Just . . .â The nurseâs words trailed off, from both her mouth and Secretâs ears.
Secret had heard that nickname before. Sheâd heard that exact same voice calling her by that name before. Was she going crazy? Was she losing it? Was her mind going back in time, as if her life was flashing before her eyes?
âI know her,â the nurse said, the sound of her scrubs brushing together as if they were about to start a fire. Thatâs how fast her petite legs were moving in order to keep up with the hospital aides who were wheeling the bed. Standing only five feet and three inches tall, it wasnât as easy of a feat as one might think.
No one acknowledged the nurseâs comment for yet a second time, as they wheeled Secret into the operation room where another doctor and two more nurses waited with faces masked and hands gloved. There was some mumbo jumbo, from what Secret could hear, among all the voices in the room. Whether the nurse knew or simply thought she knew who Secret was, was no longer relevant. There was a life that needed to be saved. As far as Secret knew, two lives.
There was a prick in Secretâs arm. Within seconds, no matter how hard she tried, she could not get her eyes to open. The lights were out. She was in the dark. The voices faded. She was clueless as to what was going on. Was she falling asleep, or was she dying? She didnât want to do either