shoulda gone with Clay. He said I could.â
âIf you ever go with Clay, Iâll take away your basketball and hoop,â she threatened, using the only weapon she had.
He actually paled. Basketball was his life. âCome on, Becky, I was just kidding!â
âI hope so,â she said. âClay is keeping bad company. I have enough trouble without adding you to it.â
âThatâs right,â Granddad seconded.
Mack picked up his fork. âOkay. Iâll keep away from Bill and Dick. Just donât bother my B-ball.â
âThatâs a deal,â Becky promised, and tried not to look too relieved.
Sheâd done the dishes and cleaned up the living room and washed two loads of clothes while Granddad and Mack watched television. Then she supervised Mackâs homework, got him to bed, settled Granddad, took a bath, and started to go to bed herself. Before she could, however, Clay staggered into the living room, giggling and reeking of beer.
The overpowering maltish smell made her sick. Nothing in her experience had prepared her to deal with this. She stared at him with helpless fury, hating the home life that had led him into such a trap. He was at the age where he needed a man to guide him, a manâs example to follow. He was looking for a measuring stick, and instead of using Granddad, heâd found the Harris brothers.
âOh, Clay,â she said miserably. He looked so much like her, with his brown hair and slender build, but his eyes were pure green, not hazel like hers and Mackâs and his face had a ruddy look.
He grinned at her. âI wonât be sick, you know. I smoked a joint before I tanked up on beer.â He blinked. âIâm quitting school, Becky, because itâs for wimps and retards.â
âNo, you arenât,â she said shortly. âIâm not working myself to death to watch you become a professional bum.â
He glared at her dizzily. âYouâre just my sister, Becky. You canât tell me what to do.â
âStand and watch me,â she said. âI donât want you hanging around with those Harris boys anymore. Theyâre leading you right into trouble.â
âTheyâre my friends, and Iâll hang out with them if I want to,â he informed her. He felt wild. Heâd smoked some crack, as well, and his head was about to explode. The high had been beautiful, but now that it was wearing off, he felt more depressed than ever. âI hate being poor!â he announced.
Becky glared at him. âThen get a job,â she said coldly. âI did. I got one even before I graduated from high school. I worked at three before I found this one, and took night courses so that I could land it.â
âHere we go again, Saint Becky,â he said, slurring the words. âSo you work. Big deal. What do we have to show for it?! Weâre dirt poor, and now that Granddadâs ill, itâll get worse!â
She felt herself getting sick inside. She knew that, but having Clay fling it in her face didnât help. He was drunk, she tried to tell herself, he didnât know what he was saying. It hurt all the same.
âYou selfish little boy,â she said angrily. âYou ungrateful brat! Iâm working myself to death, and here you are complaining that we donât have anything!â
He swayed, sat down heavily, and took a slow breath. She probably was right, but he was too stoned to care. âLeave me alone,â he muttered, stretching out on the couch. âJust leave me alone.â
âWhat have you had besides beer and marijuana?â she demanded.
âA little crack,â he said drowsily. âEverybody does it. Leave me aloneâIâm sleepy.â
He sprawled and closed his eyes. He was asleep at once. Becky stood over him in stunned agony. Crack. Sheâd never seen it, but she knew very well what it was from the newsâan illegal