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    “But Grace, why New York?  Did you think about going to graduate school closer to home?”
    “Mom!  Stop the interrogation.  Have you noticed your own daughter is going 1000 miles to live on an American Indian reservation?”
      “Yes, Eve, but unfortunately, you have always been my wild and brave one.  Grace here is the sensitive type.  I’m afraid those New Yorkers will eat her up.”
    “That’s why I’m going.”  I say it so softly that Eve’s mom doesn’t hear.  She is too busy checking Eve’s things.  But Eve hears.
    “Mom, I know there won’t be any Starbucks on a reservation.  Can you treat me to a latte before I go?  I’ll just bring it on the plane.”
    “Oh, of course.  Anything for my baby girl.  I’ll be right back.”
    “Okay, Grace.  Look at that line at the espresso bar.  We have at least 10 minutes.  Spill it!  Why New York City?”
    “I love you Eve, but this is hard to talk about.”
    “Hard to talk about?  We tell each other everything.”
    “I know but I don’t know if I understand it myself.”
    “Does this have to do with the whole orgasm pact?  That conversation seemed to shake you up.”
    “Why does everyone notice what I am feeling?  Okay, here goes.”  I take a deep breath. “I feel totally intimidated by men when it comes to relationships.  That I did figure out last night.  I feel weak and I hate it.  When I think about having sex again, I actually start to hyperventilate.  I don’t think I can ever have casual sex again.  It’s too risky.  I’m tired of feeling disappointed.  Tired of feeling…. empty .” 
    “Oh, Grace.  I do understand that.  I really do.  I am sick of immature assholes myself!  But why New York City?”
    “Remember the stories I used to tell about when I was in grade school and all I did was play with the boys in the neighborhood?”
    “You want to play with the boys in New York City?”  Eve snickers.
    “I know it sounds stupid, but yeah, sort of.  When I was a little kid, it was the only time in my life where I felt confident and strong with the male gender.  It even kind of came back when I hung out with my nerdy guy group at college.  I never felt intimidated.  They were my closest friends at college. Not women, those guys!   Don’t get me wrong.  Nothing will ever replace you, Dee, and Janie. You all are my sisters.  I just feel like if I don’t challenge myself now, I never will again.  I figured the biggest bunch of prick men have to be in New York City.  Lord knows my graduate major will be overwhelmingly male.  I plan on going there and kicking ass!  No man is ever going to make me feel weak again.    I’m sorry, Eve but Dee can fuck herself if she thinks I am going into an orgasm pact within the year.      No more sex for me until I toughen up.”
    “I actually have goose bumps, Grace.  What do you mean you have me to thank?  You just inspired me!  I’m holding out too.  I have had it with men anyway.”
    “Are you sure, Eve, with your new hot body?”  I teased.
    Eve just recently lost a lot of weight.  I was kind of jealous.  She and I are close in height and we both always struggled with the scale.  We weighed in the 140’s which is definitely chunky for our five foot three frames.  As soon as she found out she got the scholarship for free graduate tuition in exchange for teaching on the American Indian reservation, she really focused on losing weight. I, on the other hand, didn’t stop feeding my emotions with free ice cream at the shop we worked at. 
    “The scale said 127 this morning, girl!”
    “Eve, that is incredible.”  I kept thinking about how I would feel 10 to 15 pounds thinner.  It would definitely help my confidence level.  “I saw how much you worked out.  I have four months before the spring semester starts.  If I’m going to invent a whole new me, I might as well have a kick ass figure to match the