Nan, whether in accusation or apology she couldnât tell.
âHe doesnât mean any offence,â whispered Bob.
Nan was staring past Joe, concentrating on a pattern in the flowered wallpaper, as if her glasses were binoculars to a freer world. She turned back to Lisa who sat silent and angry, with tears streaming down her face.
âIf you ask me,â Joe said in a lower voice, âLisa could just as well go to the junior college like Lynda and Debbie done.â He smiled benignly at Debbie, the bearer of his imminent grandchild.
âPerhaps now isnât the best time to discuss it,â suggested Shirley. âBeing that itâs Christmas and we havenât seen Nan for a month. Tell us about that trip you made, to Kansas, wasnât it, to lecture to those professors.â
âYes,â Nan said, trying to sound interesting. âYes, I talked about Virginia Woolf as a forerunner in feminist criticism, showing her influence on â¦â The Berkeley idiom reflexively returned when she discussed her work. âI mean, she was an important woman writer who â¦â
âOh, yes,â Shirley nodded, just holding back a yawn. The others searched around the table for the last scraps of dessert. Joe was eating a creamed onion with his fingers.
âWell now,â Nan interrupted herself, âHow about opening the presents?â
âYou all go in and Iâll start the coffee,â said Shirley. She looked relieved that the celebration was back in gear.
Before Shirley returned with the percolator and the tray of coffee cups, Joe had managed a grope along Nanâs back to determine if she were wearing a bra. An old trick of his. This treatment occurred every holiday, but usually toward the end of the evening. No use lecturing about the finer points of sexual harassment, Nan knew, so she slid to the other end of the couch.
Shirley poured coffee and then sat down deliberately on the cushion between her husband and her sister.
Everyoneâs generosity was unqualified. Nylon shirts and polyester slacks and orlon sweatersâall wash ânâ wear in the latest Sears colours. They honoured Nanâs strange aversion to synthetic fibres. She received a cotton tablecloth, a silk scarf, a wool muffler and a flannel nightie. Chastened, Nan thought how lucky she was to have a family tolerant of her eccentricities. Shirley regarded wash ânâ wear as unequivocal progressâone less thing to iron. But if Nan wanted to iron, well, that was her business.
Only two protests were made that afternoon, both by Shirley. Her first objection was to the big ring she received from Joe.
âAw, itâs only a zircon, hon,â he said lying with his legs across Shirleyâs lap. He picked up his Alka Seltzer and drank deeply. Before Shirley could protest further he added, âJust wait âtill I make foreman; itâll be a real diamond then.â
âBut Joe, we canât afford â¦â she began.
âNow donât tell me what we canât afford,â he said. âIâm the one who brings home the money. Iâm the one whoâll do the affording.â
Shirley was also taken aback by the silk blouse that Nan had given Lisa. She asked if it wasnât a little too old for the girl. The girl didnât think so. In fact the present brought a smile to Lisaâs face for the first time since dinner.
Throughout the evening, Nan kept stealing glances at Lisa. On the whole she looked OK. A little pale perhaps. But everyone turned grey around the gills at Christmas. Lisa would be just fine when they checked those tests at Memorial Hospital tomorrow. Nan was almost convinced that this âmysterious illnessâ was a reaction to commuting between Hayward and Berkeley, a kind of cultural carsickness. Once Lisa had moved from home, Nan tried to reassure herself, she would get better. Yes, she insisted, Lisa would be all