street were minuscule, but my mind was attuned to the search. An alarming number of women had auburn hair. When Elizabeth and I started seeing each other, her hair color was unusual. I couldnât believe I hadnât noticed this before, though, to be fair, I hadnât noticed much of anything for the past three years.
I put my head down and continued on my journey. Only a few blocks from Woodward, gaping holes pocked the street, the loose cobbles stolen for other uses. An odor of rot joined the oily stink of coal smoke. As I walked, the buildings became more and more squat, down to the single-story clapboard shop that was my destinationâthe Empire Pharmacy. It had taken me a number of months to find a pharmacy to my liking, that is, a pharmacy that would sell me morphine over an extended period of time without making an issue of it. Practically the only one I hadnât tried was Adamoâs pharmacy next to the Bucket. I wasnât going there.
A bell tinkled when I opened the door. The pharmacist, an old, stooped man I knew only as Mick, nodded when he saw me. âHow many today, sir?â
âIâd like a sixteen-ounce bottle.â
âWell,â he said, a glint in his eye. âIâm not supposed to sell those except to doctors, sir.â
âWhatâs the difference, Mick? You donât want to fill all those little bottles anyway, do you?â
âI donât know.â He rubbed the back of his neck and made a point of looking around furtively. âYouâd have to make it worth my while. I could get in a lot of trouble.â
He normally charged me two dollars per one-ounce bottle, twice the amount charged by a respectable pharmacy. But a respectable pharmacy wouldnât sell morphine to the likes of me. At least, not without a prescription. âIâll give you forty bucks.â
Shaking his head, he looked down at the floor. âSir, I donât think I can do this.â
âFifty.â It was at least two weeksâ pay for him.
His eyes cut to mine. âI could do that.â
I pulled my wallet from inside my coat, took out a brand new fifty-dollar bill, and placed it on the counter.
He grabbed the bill and stuck it into his trouser pocket. âRight away.â While he rooted around behind the counter, I wiped my nose.
He put the bottle in a paper bag and handed it to me. I turned to leave. As I did, I glanced up at his face and saw an expression that made me turn away even faster. His eyes were narrowed and his mouth set into a tight frown. It was a look you might give to a man whoâd stolen money from his children.
Disgust.
CHAPTER THREE
A top my walnut bar, Sophie Tuckerâs voice warbled out of the horn of Wesleyâs Victrolaâ Some of these days youâre gonna miss me, honey / Some of these days, youâre gonna be so lonely. â¦
I cherished this Victrola and its records far more than the two thousand dollars Wesley had left me. Music was what his life had been aboutâwriting, playing, singing. I missed him almost as much as I missed Elizabeth. The only postcard sheâd sent me, with a picture of Alexandre-Gustave Eiffelâs tower on the front, had arrived three months earlier. It was still on the end table next to the sofa. I sat down and flipped it over, reading her message for the hundredth time:
Dearest Will,
I hope this note finds you well. I am feeling better since my last letter, though I must admit the thought of returning home someday still fills me with dread. Of small comfort is the fact that we wonât be doing so any time soon. My mother is nearly as overcome with melancholia as when we arrived in Europe. Iâll write again soon. I miss you.
Yours,
Elizabeth
Iâd had no word from her since.
I noticed again that I was rubbing my hand. I tugged off the black kid glove a quarter-inch at a time. First to appear was the scar from the gouge on the inside of my wrist that