eyebrows. âYes?â
This is a man who appreciates directness, so I get to the point. âI care about this place as much as you do. What can I do to convince you Iâm ready for the big-way?â
Dad stands up from behind his desk. I hold my breath as he walks toward me, then holds my arms. âExhibit patience, for starters. I know you love this place and want it to do well. You donât have to prove anything.â
I step out of his circle of power. âAnother way to say you donât believe I can.â
His tone flips like a switch. âDonât come in here and try to browbeat me, kiddo. It ainât gonna happen.â
I fix him with what I think is a disarming smile but Iâm sure comes off more like Iâm constipated. âI wasnât raised to back down,â I answer with a lift of my chin. I know I sound like a tired war movie, but itâs his language, so I speak it. Dad dismisses me by pointing at the door.
Domâs kneeling by my chute, straightening the parachute lines, when I stomp over.
âWhoa!â he says, grabbing my hand. âSpill.â
âCommander Crotchety in thereââââI thumb toward the officeâââârefuses to let me be part of the big-way weâre doing to lure the X Games here.â Domâs eyes go wide. Iâve lit up his entire brain with visions of glory. âHe says I need to be perfect,
precise
. I can land my pinky toe on a penny in the middle of the DZ. Iâve done tons of formation jumps with you guys. What else do I have to do to show him?â
He holds my jumpsuit out for me to step into. âYou know that famous thing where Babe Ruth points to the outfield and calls it?â
âNot really, but whatâs your point?â I ask, punching my arms into the suit.
âCall it.â When I show no sign of understanding, he zips me up and adds, âCall your opening altitude and call where youâll touch down. Be precise about it. Hotdog your descent and stick the landing. Make it pretty. Iâll film it so you can show him how good you are. Heâs too busy to watch you, so he doesnât see that youâre a badass skydiver.â
âHe doesnât see me, period.â
I look away from Domâs sympathetic eyes. Already a radical plan is formulating. The most radical Iâve ever had. Maybe you donât have to die to earn Dadâs respect. Maybe you just have to show him youâre not afraid to. âPack it to open fast,â I tell Dom.
âBoldly go.â He smirks.
âYou bet your ass. Where no
man
has gone before.â
He gets back to folding my chute. Then he looks up at me. âAnd babe, Iâm putting a penny in the dirt.â
I rip a page from the back of someoneâs jump log and write on it, then march it into Dadâs office. He doesnât even look at me or the paper as I toss it on his desk and about-face, slinging my helmet over my shoulder.
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The pilot goes full throttle for takeoff, engines thunder, and the plane vibrates with power. Cold air sneaks in under the jump door next to me as I mentally run through what Iâm about to do. We rumble down the runway, and I try to ignore the eyes of the other jumpers on me; recalling the eyes in the mirror causes unfamiliar nerves to fire off in my belly. I donât know if itâs the memory of ghostly eyes in the motor home or what Iâm about to do, but Iâve never been this on edge before a jump. My stomach is a taut, jelly-filled drum.
Once every other skydiver has exited the plane, I hold the metal edges of the doorway and lean forward into the wide open. Deep breath in, blow it out, and dive. Cool air hits my skin and presses like a giant hand against my torso. I go immediately into track position, hurtling through the pink-and-blue sky like a dart until Iâm directly over the clean circle in the desert where Iâm to execute a