custody, but she always had a rational reason why Holly couldnât come visit. A sleepover at a friendâs, a birthday party she couldnât miss. It was as if Marlene was punishing him for not being there for her.
Only recently, after sheâd gotten engaged to John Bartman, did she soften toward Derek. Sheâd fallen in love, and John treated her the way Derek should have. Sheâd finally declared a truce. That had given Derek more access to his daughter and he was grateful.
He smiled at Holly, who rose to face him.
âI promise I wonât get angry.â
Holly drew a deep breath. âMom used to say that you hated giving her child support, that you considered spending your hard-earned money on me a waste.â She bit her bottom lip with her teeth and her eyes filled with tears.
The knife in his chest twisted deeper. While he wasnât surprised Marlene had been so bitter, it infuriated him that sheâd lie to his daughter about something so serious.
âDid Mom ever not buy you things you wanted or needed?â he asked.
She shook her head. âNo! And she hasnât said that in a really long time. But she did once and I couldnât ever forget it.â Holly sniffed.
âI donât have any tissues. Want to use this, instead?â Derek grinned and held out his sleeve.
She giggled. âDad!â
He laughed. âListen to me.â He took her small hand in his, overwhelmed by the connection between them. âI promise you Iâm not angry,â he told her, squeezing her palm tighter in his. âI made a lot of mistakes with your mom. Iâm upset that I made her so unhappy that she felt that way.â He struggled for the right words so it didnât seem as if he was bashing her mother.
He and Marlene had come a long way.
âLet me make a few things clear to you right now. Number one, I love you. I didnât walk out on you. Your mother and I agreed that me leaving was for the best. Your mom was angry at me for a lot of grown-up reasons, but thatâs over now. Iâm happy for her and John. Are you?â
Holly nodded. âHeâs not bad. And Mom seems a lot happier now so thatâs good.â
Derek exhaled, relieved she understood. Divorce wasnât easy on kids. âSo how about you and I start over? No assumptions, no misunderstandings. If you want something, ask. I reserve the right to say no if I think itâs bad for you, but itâll always be out of love. Okay?â
His little girl, who at eleven looked much older, stood in front of him, merely staring.
âDo you understand what I said?â he asked, wanting to be clear.
She nodded and sniffed. âI think you said you want to buy me those sheets. You just used a long explanation to get there.â She shuffled from foot to foot, her excitement tangible. âCan I pick them out now?â
He laughed, and despite knowing better, he pulled her into a hug.
She froze and his heart felt as if it had stopped. It had been too long since theyâd been that comfortable around each other and he held his breath, waiting for her reaction. Inch by inch, she wrapped her arms around his waist and hugged him back. His heart began to beat again.
She bent back down and handed him the itemsâsheets, pillow cases and, of course, the extra throw pillows and dust ruffle that added to the cost but increased her smile by a yard.
âYou need pillows to fit inside the odd shaped shams,â he told her. âI saw them over there by the sample bed.â His arms were full with her choices.
âIâll get them.â She ran back to the display and returned a minute later with three small pillows in her arms.
Once again, she began squirming, obviously excited about something new.
âWhatâs up?â he asked.
âWhile I was there, I heard two women talking,â she whispered. âOne was Ms. Merchant, the librarian. The other was a